Tha researcher is fed up wit makin’ revisions. Tha researcher has no plans for further study. Tha researcher is movin’ on. Tha researcher is finally gettin’ a life again.
So long,thesis!
Monday, January 27
I woke up at 8am to screams of panic from the neighborhood, and ma 5’11 bro hovering over ma bed…
BRO: “May sunog! Daliiii…!!! Malapit sa’yo!” [“There’s a fire! Quick! It’s near your room!”]
ME [somewut amused]: “Sunog? Eh kapitbahay lang natin bumbero!” [“Fire? But we have tha firemen for our neighbors!”]
At which point I tried to close ma eyes again. Ma big bro is known fo’ trippin’ on me. most probably tha fire he wuz talkin’ about wuz miles away from us. But when maver told me to hurry, that’s when I started gathering things.
The First Thangs I Gathered In Tha Fire:
1] money & tha thesis that wuz due today.
2] tha Jergens lotion, milk bath , and deodorant in front of me. [in ma confusion, I grabb’d tha 1st thangs that came to view..]
3] ma school bag, ma favorite tops, ma diary & tha books I’ve bought which I haven’t read all went in a big yellow SM Supermarket plastic bag I found lyin’ around.
4] 4 pairs of jeans, a set of school uniform, 6 undies, and ma tape recorder which I found amidst ma undies were placed in ma Coca-cola bag along wit a dictionary & a thesaurus.
5] things I’ve borrow’d from ma friends: ruth’s Gone With The Wind and pam’s Picture Perfect vcds.
Maver stared at me as I emerged from tha house carryin’ a plastic bag wit wut I thought wuz relief to see her only daughter alive and not consumed by flames. Wrong. “Ano ba yan! Bat ganyan ang hitsura mo? Nakakahiya sa kapitbahay! At bat dyan mo nilagay ang mga gamit mo? Ala ka bang bag?! [“Could you have dress’d any worse than that?”} she ask’d, starin’ at ma disheveled hair & tha 2 big holes of tha old P.E. shirt I slept in which exposed ma shoulders. [“..And why’d u put your things in a plastic bag? Don’t you have any bags?!”]
A minute later I found her cryin’ over an altogether diff’rent reason...
MA: “Pano na ang pangkabuhayan natin? Dito lang tayo nabubuhay!” [“Wut will we live on?”] she cried, referring to our house, which is also home to 40 ladies and is our main source of income.
Tha house next to us wuz already cover’d in a thick fog. To make things light, I ask’d bro to take out his Cyber-shot-U to capture tha moment. Only, he can’t locate it. Meanwhile, Aling Melba & Aling Lorna,our good-hearted neighbors were already volunteerin’ to help us wit our things. Ma brover had already started disconnecting computer wires & wuz about to carry it off when mum told him to juz leave it alone & that we'll juz git another one.
An hour later, it wuz all over. An AM radio announcer announced that “tha fire in Sta. Mesa is mapping out and under control.”
Whew. Told em not to worry. I could’ve been burn’d alive too. Well, serves you right fo’ leavin' me… Wait, scratch that! I sound narcissistic! Of course I wuden have burn’d! I knew bettr than to sleep through a fire. And anyway, I have no plans on dyin’ today!
Sad thing ‘bout our neighbors’ house... their whole upstairs burn’d. Not tha house next to us, but tha 2nd house from us. Good thang no one wuz hurt although tha young lad sleepin’ in tha upstairs room got trapp’d beneath tha bars for a moment. The slipup? Faulty electrical wiring, of course.
BRO: “May sunog! Daliiii…!!! Malapit sa’yo!” [“There’s a fire! Quick! It’s near your room!”]
ME [somewut amused]: “Sunog? Eh kapitbahay lang natin bumbero!” [“Fire? But we have tha firemen for our neighbors!”]
At which point I tried to close ma eyes again. Ma big bro is known fo’ trippin’ on me. most probably tha fire he wuz talkin’ about wuz miles away from us. But when maver told me to hurry, that’s when I started gathering things.
The First Thangs I Gathered In Tha Fire:
1] money & tha thesis that wuz due today.
2] tha Jergens lotion, milk bath , and deodorant in front of me. [in ma confusion, I grabb’d tha 1st thangs that came to view..]
3] ma school bag, ma favorite tops, ma diary & tha books I’ve bought which I haven’t read all went in a big yellow SM Supermarket plastic bag I found lyin’ around.
4] 4 pairs of jeans, a set of school uniform, 6 undies, and ma tape recorder which I found amidst ma undies were placed in ma Coca-cola bag along wit a dictionary & a thesaurus.
5] things I’ve borrow’d from ma friends: ruth’s Gone With The Wind and pam’s Picture Perfect vcds.
Maver stared at me as I emerged from tha house carryin’ a plastic bag wit wut I thought wuz relief to see her only daughter alive and not consumed by flames. Wrong. “Ano ba yan! Bat ganyan ang hitsura mo? Nakakahiya sa kapitbahay! At bat dyan mo nilagay ang mga gamit mo? Ala ka bang bag?! [“Could you have dress’d any worse than that?”} she ask’d, starin’ at ma disheveled hair & tha 2 big holes of tha old P.E. shirt I slept in which exposed ma shoulders. [“..And why’d u put your things in a plastic bag? Don’t you have any bags?!”]
A minute later I found her cryin’ over an altogether diff’rent reason...
MA: “Pano na ang pangkabuhayan natin? Dito lang tayo nabubuhay!” [“Wut will we live on?”] she cried, referring to our house, which is also home to 40 ladies and is our main source of income.
Tha house next to us wuz already cover’d in a thick fog. To make things light, I ask’d bro to take out his Cyber-shot-U to capture tha moment. Only, he can’t locate it. Meanwhile, Aling Melba & Aling Lorna,our good-hearted neighbors were already volunteerin’ to help us wit our things. Ma brover had already started disconnecting computer wires & wuz about to carry it off when mum told him to juz leave it alone & that we'll juz git another one.
An hour later, it wuz all over. An AM radio announcer announced that “tha fire in Sta. Mesa is mapping out and under control.”
Whew. Told em not to worry. I could’ve been burn’d alive too. Well, serves you right fo’ leavin' me… Wait, scratch that! I sound narcissistic! Of course I wuden have burn’d! I knew bettr than to sleep through a fire. And anyway, I have no plans on dyin’ today!
Sad thing ‘bout our neighbors’ house... their whole upstairs burn’d. Not tha house next to us, but tha 2nd house from us. Good thang no one wuz hurt although tha young lad sleepin’ in tha upstairs room got trapp’d beneath tha bars for a moment. The slipup? Faulty electrical wiring, of course.
Sunday, January 26
An explanation of wut i've been lately by Chris:
Look to the audience. If there isn't one, beware. If it's you, unamaze yourself. Disenthrall. Whatever it takes. Or else you're going down, for good, and the waves will close silently over you, a tribute to her bountiful care and kindness. Her unparalleled, unquestionable beauty. The modern term is narcissism. From next to nothing, we construct a world, a world in which we are esteemed.Supremely. Without question. Unconditionally. That's what we want.That's what all of us want when we're two years old. Some of us don't get it. Some of us learned to compromise. Ambiguity, slop in the system, neglect, disorder. Life. Genuine acceptance. But there's another kind of "acceptance" which is supplied by others. Proffered willingly, love. Dangled as bait, desire. Doesn't matter. Makes no difference. All is taken as food. As fuel for an esteem of self that becomes an inverted religion. Disguised as spirit, a hunger so dark it remains forever hidden. So sealed, it admits nothing but itself.
Look to the audience. If there isn't one, beware. If it's you, unamaze yourself. Disenthrall. Whatever it takes. Or else you're going down, for good, and the waves will close silently over you, a tribute to her bountiful care and kindness. Her unparalleled, unquestionable beauty. The modern term is narcissism. From next to nothing, we construct a world, a world in which we are esteemed.Supremely. Without question. Unconditionally. That's what we want.That's what all of us want when we're two years old. Some of us don't get it. Some of us learned to compromise. Ambiguity, slop in the system, neglect, disorder. Life. Genuine acceptance. But there's another kind of "acceptance" which is supplied by others. Proffered willingly, love. Dangled as bait, desire. Doesn't matter. Makes no difference. All is taken as food. As fuel for an esteem of self that becomes an inverted religion. Disguised as spirit, a hunger so dark it remains forever hidden. So sealed, it admits nothing but itself.
Suddenly by Soraya
A thousand eyes lookin’ at me
But yours is the look that goes right through me
And I cannot hide from your stare
Should I let you win? Do I dare?
Some other hands have tried before
But yours is the touch that makes me want more
Cannot hide the urgency
To have you right here with me
Cause suddenly in my life
There’s something that’s got me mystified tonight
Cannot fight it but I can try to keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand words have tried to stay
Yours are the one who never fade away
I cannot hide from this sound
I am mesmerized feelin’ round and round and
Some other hearts have tried to steal mine
Yours is the one that I hold dear
I’ll do what it takes to keep you here
I’m a selfish fool but I have no fear
A thousand times I’ve tried to stay
Alone by pushing you away
Time after time, tear after tear,
Find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
As we struggled to find a source of this peace
Always end with your kiss
A thousand eyes lookin’ at me
But yours is the look that goes right through me
And I cannot hide from your stare
Should I let you win? Do I dare?
Some other hands have tried before
But yours is the touch that makes me want more
Cannot hide the urgency
To have you right here with me
Cause suddenly in my life
There’s something that’s got me mystified tonight
Cannot fight it but I can try to keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand words have tried to stay
Yours are the one who never fade away
I cannot hide from this sound
I am mesmerized feelin’ round and round and
Some other hearts have tried to steal mine
Yours is the one that I hold dear
I’ll do what it takes to keep you here
I’m a selfish fool but I have no fear
A thousand times I’ve tried to stay
Alone by pushing you away
Time after time, tear after tear,
Find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
As we struggled to find a source of this peace
Always end with your kiss
Saturday, January 25
Sunday, January 19
My Character Analysis From A Stranger:
This from a guy I chatted in ICQ wit for 30 minutes: ur a very naughty girl and entertaining one & seem 2 dislike men. u seem to have a lot of guts for a girl, and persuasive and menly[?] and annoying and hirap ligawan and dependent and u want the world to revolve on you, u toy with us but inspite of ur character ur a sweet lover and a thoughtfulll[triple "L"?] one.
Wuz not even hitting on him, i merely ask'd where he goes to school when he said: dami mo personality ha kita ko rin sayo na sobrang lambing mo bawasan mo yan
And finally,this when i merely reminded him that he should click "send" and not "enter" to send his messages: childish mo talaga
Ang tindi mo, tsong! You're not even interested in astrology and malayo naman course mo from psychology...I mean you're a guy and you're not dense! Wish half tha world would pay attention like ya do...
This from a guy I chatted in ICQ wit for 30 minutes: ur a very naughty girl and entertaining one & seem 2 dislike men. u seem to have a lot of guts for a girl, and persuasive and menly[?] and annoying and hirap ligawan and dependent and u want the world to revolve on you, u toy with us but inspite of ur character ur a sweet lover and a thoughtfulll[triple "L"?] one.
Wuz not even hitting on him, i merely ask'd where he goes to school when he said: dami mo personality ha kita ko rin sayo na sobrang lambing mo bawasan mo yan
And finally,this when i merely reminded him that he should click "send" and not "enter" to send his messages: childish mo talaga
Ang tindi mo, tsong! You're not even interested in astrology and malayo naman course mo from psychology...I mean you're a guy and you're not dense! Wish half tha world would pay attention like ya do...
Saturday, January 18
Got # 3 on ma list… Thanks, Santa! =)
18 songs all in all. Tha burn’d CD contain’d songs I specifically ask’d for like:
1] Don’t Speak by No Doubt –this song reminds me of ma second year high school days when I wuz infatuated wit a boy call’d Jed and when Gwen Stefani wuz ma absolute goddess.
2] Comfort In Your Strangeness by Cynthia Alexander –no specific reason except I juz really dig this song, spesh tha violin.
3] Suddenly by Soraya –an easy listenin’ song that chills ma mind.
4] Need To Be Next To You by Leigh Nash –this song wuz a fave when I wuz in 2nd year college & I cut a class wit a friend, design’d a huge banner for her, and sneak’d into tha empty dorm of her boyfriend where we decorated his and a certain miserable person’s room and taped tha banner I made professin’ ma friend’s love fo’ her guy where he could see it before slippin’ back to school. t'was on V-day when ma own luvlife suck’d.
5] Each Time by E-17 –this song gives me good vibes. also reminds me of someone I met in college named Raniel whose fave song it is.
6] Swallowed by Bush –a song by my former goddess Gwen’s god Gavin who also became my temporary male god of music. it also reminds of an era when men sported danglin’ chains from their pants everywhere you look’d.
7] Hey Hey by Tonya –an LSS –infecting fast song.
It also contain’d:
8] Come Away With Me by Norah Jones –i prefer “Don’t Know Why” but sumthin’ went wrong wit tha copy Santa burn’d. At least it’s a song of tha same artist.
9] Buses and Trains by ? –i diden ask for this one but I liked it juz tha same.
18 songs all in all. Tha burn’d CD contain’d songs I specifically ask’d for like:
1] Don’t Speak by No Doubt –this song reminds me of ma second year high school days when I wuz infatuated wit a boy call’d Jed and when Gwen Stefani wuz ma absolute goddess.
2] Comfort In Your Strangeness by Cynthia Alexander –no specific reason except I juz really dig this song, spesh tha violin.
3] Suddenly by Soraya –an easy listenin’ song that chills ma mind.
4] Need To Be Next To You by Leigh Nash –this song wuz a fave when I wuz in 2nd year college & I cut a class wit a friend, design’d a huge banner for her, and sneak’d into tha empty dorm of her boyfriend where we decorated his and a certain miserable person’s room and taped tha banner I made professin’ ma friend’s love fo’ her guy where he could see it before slippin’ back to school. t'was on V-day when ma own luvlife suck’d.
5] Each Time by E-17 –this song gives me good vibes. also reminds me of someone I met in college named Raniel whose fave song it is.
6] Swallowed by Bush –a song by my former goddess Gwen’s god Gavin who also became my temporary male god of music. it also reminds of an era when men sported danglin’ chains from their pants everywhere you look’d.
7] Hey Hey by Tonya –an LSS –infecting fast song.
It also contain’d:
8] Come Away With Me by Norah Jones –i prefer “Don’t Know Why” but sumthin’ went wrong wit tha copy Santa burn’d. At least it’s a song of tha same artist.
9] Buses and Trains by ? –i diden ask for this one but I liked it juz tha same.
Tuesday, January 14
Newspaper reporters are corpse flies. Not only do they lie, they also prey on the misery of others. ->Margaret Atwood
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Back To You (thesis)
Bat ganon? Parang andali ng chapter 5 ng thesis ko? Bat parang ang iksi ng 11 pages ko kumpara sa makakapal na tinitingnan ko? Bat ganon? Kumonsulta pala si Santa Susvilla sa isang libro bago sya gumawa ng survey questionnaires? Bat walang nagsabi sacen? Pano na yan? Inimbento ko lan ang mga tanong ko sa survey! At bakit ganon? Nangdaya rin ba si Joiz sa pagbibilang nya ng mga sagot ng makita niyang parang kulang ang ibang sagot? {mga panelists at adviser, lumayo-layo sa websayt ko!} Bat parang hindi mukhang totoo ang thesis ko? MALI YATA!!!!! Paktay!
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Back To You (thesis)
Bat ganon? Parang andali ng chapter 5 ng thesis ko? Bat parang ang iksi ng 11 pages ko kumpara sa makakapal na tinitingnan ko? Bat ganon? Kumonsulta pala si Santa Susvilla sa isang libro bago sya gumawa ng survey questionnaires? Bat walang nagsabi sacen? Pano na yan? Inimbento ko lan ang mga tanong ko sa survey! At bakit ganon? Nangdaya rin ba si Joiz sa pagbibilang nya ng mga sagot ng makita niyang parang kulang ang ibang sagot? {mga panelists at adviser, lumayo-layo sa websayt ko!} Bat parang hindi mukhang totoo ang thesis ko? MALI YATA!!!!! Paktay!
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Tuesday, January 7
Wut to do when ya hafta temporarily disconnect coz sumone's gotta use tha fon:
Click on pammy. =) Nominated once as tha blogger wit tha longest posts, shoorely, ya won't run outta thangs to read! [juz take a look at her scrollbar for proof] Atta Gurl P, we miss ya!
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Among one of tha first thangs I did in 2003:
1] ordered a vegetable in an expensive restau.
->found out spinach could actually taste good. [tasted like cheese] i guess any vegetable could taste good provided they are drown'd in some flavor til they don't taste anythin' like their real taste no more..
2] took a pre-employment test for a job that have nuthin' to do wit ma course.
3] tried to copy math test answers from ruth.
4] discover'd a like fo' answerin' flowchart tests.
5] did half of ma homework.
6] consumed half of tha ink of ma fave pen.
7] cursed a certain professor for makin' me consume ink of fave pen.
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I really don't get how ma maver can tolerate her fave soap opera [Habang Kapiling Ka]. They play'd tis terrible overly dramatic background music they play at every single scene which makes ya think of final confrontations between tha antagonist and tha central character of tha story when in fact tha maid is just combing her hair.
Click on pammy. =) Nominated once as tha blogger wit tha longest posts, shoorely, ya won't run outta thangs to read! [juz take a look at her scrollbar for proof] Atta Gurl P, we miss ya!
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Among one of tha first thangs I did in 2003:
1] ordered a vegetable in an expensive restau.
->found out spinach could actually taste good. [tasted like cheese] i guess any vegetable could taste good provided they are drown'd in some flavor til they don't taste anythin' like their real taste no more..
2] took a pre-employment test for a job that have nuthin' to do wit ma course.
3] tried to copy math test answers from ruth.
4] discover'd a like fo' answerin' flowchart tests.
5] did half of ma homework.
6] consumed half of tha ink of ma fave pen.
7] cursed a certain professor for makin' me consume ink of fave pen.
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I really don't get how ma maver can tolerate her fave soap opera [Habang Kapiling Ka]. They play'd tis terrible overly dramatic background music they play at every single scene which makes ya think of final confrontations between tha antagonist and tha central character of tha story when in fact tha maid is just combing her hair.
Tuesday, December 31
Tha Perils Of Bein’ a Bunso
1] no one takes you seriously. [i’m serious.]
2] ya git mocked for yer efforts.
3] evry’un laughs at ya.
4] ya oftn git ignored.
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Diden know how I got tha clan together in tha car and diden know how I got em at tha hotel yesterday but I did and I don’t wanna talk no more ‘bout how when I tried to convince maver to git tha family to go wit me to tha mall, she juz went right ahead and slept; nor do I wanna talk ‘bout how she wuz jolted from her sleep when I fin’lly told her we’re goin’ to a hotel fo’ tha night, laugh’d her wits off, tried to sleep and then laugh’d some more til she told paver and then both were in hysterics; and neither do I wanna tell ‘bout how ma clan pretended not to know me ten feet away til I settled tha deposit wit tha receptionist of tha hotel.
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I diden like tha orange light of our room. I diden like their sneaky way of chargin’ supposed to be complimentary [accdng to their pamphlet] local calls. I diden like tha shampoo. I diden like how they diden provide mouthwash or toothpaste. I diden like tha pretentious look of tha hotel’s restaurant. I liked tha bathtub. I liked their breakfast. I liked tha cleanliness of our room. I liked tha weighing scale. I liked tha hairdryer. I liked tha scroungy plastic thingy you put on your head. I diden like missin’ tha chance to use tha pool/sauna/gym but then that wuz entirely our fault.
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You can call it Christmas week if you like, this span of days between Christmas and New Year's Day. But in New York City, this in-between season is really New Year's week. It has all the human frenzy of the days before Christmas but none of the pressure of a Santa Claus deadline. The clock is still ticking relentlessly, but toward a new holiday denouement.
In this in-between week, the main event is just trying to get around with your self-importance intact. It will come to a standstill tonight, when all eyes stare upward, when everyone gives up and gawks. -->anonymous
1] no one takes you seriously. [i’m serious.]
2] ya git mocked for yer efforts.
3] evry’un laughs at ya.
4] ya oftn git ignored.
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Diden know how I got tha clan together in tha car and diden know how I got em at tha hotel yesterday but I did and I don’t wanna talk no more ‘bout how when I tried to convince maver to git tha family to go wit me to tha mall, she juz went right ahead and slept; nor do I wanna talk ‘bout how she wuz jolted from her sleep when I fin’lly told her we’re goin’ to a hotel fo’ tha night, laugh’d her wits off, tried to sleep and then laugh’d some more til she told paver and then both were in hysterics; and neither do I wanna tell ‘bout how ma clan pretended not to know me ten feet away til I settled tha deposit wit tha receptionist of tha hotel.
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I diden like tha orange light of our room. I diden like their sneaky way of chargin’ supposed to be complimentary [accdng to their pamphlet] local calls. I diden like tha shampoo. I diden like how they diden provide mouthwash or toothpaste. I diden like tha pretentious look of tha hotel’s restaurant. I liked tha bathtub. I liked their breakfast. I liked tha cleanliness of our room. I liked tha weighing scale. I liked tha hairdryer. I liked tha scroungy plastic thingy you put on your head. I diden like missin’ tha chance to use tha pool/sauna/gym but then that wuz entirely our fault.
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You can call it Christmas week if you like, this span of days between Christmas and New Year's Day. But in New York City, this in-between season is really New Year's week. It has all the human frenzy of the days before Christmas but none of the pressure of a Santa Claus deadline. The clock is still ticking relentlessly, but toward a new holiday denouement.
In this in-between week, the main event is just trying to get around with your self-importance intact. It will come to a standstill tonight, when all eyes stare upward, when everyone gives up and gawks. -->anonymous
Sunday, December 29
Tha Logic Behind Posting On This Blog
Why do I keep on postin’ anyway? Truth is when I’m away from tha computer, I’d be thinkin’ ‘bout tha last thing I posted, and I’d go Urgh! Can’t believe I’ve really posted that trash! Must cover it up immediately! And so wut I do is keep on pilin’ more trash on top of another hopin’ that tha latest trash I’ve posted wud at least be a wee bit bet’r than tha last one.
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I wuz badtrip yesterday coz I wuz expectin’ to spend tha day wit ma friends at Enchanted Kingdom but found out I can’t go at tha last minute. So instead, I spent tha day readin’ homework which wuz about havin' to deal wit men whose melted eyes are pourin out of their sockets and graspin' a hand only to have tha owner of tha hand’s skin slip away towards ya. [fun, ain’t it?] Anyway, I spent tha rest of tha day tryin’ to steal clothes from ma rents’ cabinets so that I could pack somthin’ for em for our big overnight trip today. I keep on comin back to their room coz I’ve no idea where to locate some of their clothes like undies and stuff and once, maver entered and caught me diggin’ in her cabinet and ask’d wut’z up and I juz grinned foolishly and got tha hell outta there.
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Wut Ma Christmas Wuz Like
I believe I haven’t posted anythin’ ‘bout Christmas and so I think I will. Ma Christmas wuz spent wit me and tha rest of ma cuzins pickin’ on our youngest cuzin Trixie aged 10. Twaz really easy to pick on her coz most of tha time she’s such a brat and always throwin’ tantrums. For instance, she told ma maver and paver that she wanted 3 gifts for Christmas, and so we did. Guess wut she did when she finish’d openin’ all three of her gifts? Tha ungrateful li’l imp cried and complain’d coz she got 3 dresses and she want no clothes for Christmas. That’s just tha way she is and we love her by teasin’ her and so I told her not to worry for we’d be givin’ her tha bra she really wanted next Christmas. Wut Trixie hates most is to be told that she already needs to wear bra, and so she scream’d insults at me. Later as I wuz discussin’ skin whitening myths wit ma 2 other gurl twin cuzins, one of tha twins suggested takin’ a look at our 10-year-old cuzin’s armpits to see if her none-usage of deodorants had made her skin fairer than ours and again she threw a fit. She twisted and thrashed when we were within inches of her, and wud rather lie on tha dirt –good clothes and all- than have us take a look at her ‘pits. It came so that I began takin’ pity on her and almost told ma younger cuzins to stop but then she kick’d me hard on tha shin, and anyway used to be that I’m tha cuzin bein’ pick’d on by older cuzins so I let em be. She also seem to be enjoyin’ all tha attention we’re lavishin’ on her, our youngest kin.
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Got ma eyes a bit swollen yesterday from pleadin’ fo’ tha rides I’ll miss wit tha rents. Good thang I bought ma’self this novel li’l toy I found at tha mall. It’s a soothing eye mask [or so it says] which I bought for 44 pesos. You put it in tha ref for an hour and then you strap it on yer eyes. I think I’ve seen Jackielou Blanco use somthin’ which looks identical to it on TV which she strapp’d off her eyes tha moment she wuz suppos’d to be wakin’ up. Partly tha reason why I bought it. But I think maybe mine is not tha real deal. Coz when I took mine off 20 minutes or so, I open’d ma eyes to a foggy world. But then, when ya think about placin’ a glass of water on tha ref, it does tha same thing doesn’t it? I mean tha surface fogs and becomes thick wit moisture. Anyway, ma vision only fogs after tha first two minutes, it clears up eventually… but if soothin’ eye masks aren’t suppos’d to be that way, someone tell me, a’ite?
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Juz watch’d “What Lies Beneath” yesterday, and I could see a few loopholes of tha story. [like how could George Harrison become bloody when no one hit him, and how’d he reach tha stairs when he’s injured and why would he be so bent on killin’ his wife when he lov’d her and earlier saved her from death] Anyway, I’m okay wit it because like in tha Ring, I’ve figured out that a scary movie hafta have loopholes. Otherwise it wuden be scary if it were logical.
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Why do I keep on postin’ anyway? Truth is when I’m away from tha computer, I’d be thinkin’ ‘bout tha last thing I posted, and I’d go Urgh! Can’t believe I’ve really posted that trash! Must cover it up immediately! And so wut I do is keep on pilin’ more trash on top of another hopin’ that tha latest trash I’ve posted wud at least be a wee bit bet’r than tha last one.
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I wuz badtrip yesterday coz I wuz expectin’ to spend tha day wit ma friends at Enchanted Kingdom but found out I can’t go at tha last minute. So instead, I spent tha day readin’ homework which wuz about havin' to deal wit men whose melted eyes are pourin out of their sockets and graspin' a hand only to have tha owner of tha hand’s skin slip away towards ya. [fun, ain’t it?] Anyway, I spent tha rest of tha day tryin’ to steal clothes from ma rents’ cabinets so that I could pack somthin’ for em for our big overnight trip today. I keep on comin back to their room coz I’ve no idea where to locate some of their clothes like undies and stuff and once, maver entered and caught me diggin’ in her cabinet and ask’d wut’z up and I juz grinned foolishly and got tha hell outta there.
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Wut Ma Christmas Wuz Like
I believe I haven’t posted anythin’ ‘bout Christmas and so I think I will. Ma Christmas wuz spent wit me and tha rest of ma cuzins pickin’ on our youngest cuzin Trixie aged 10. Twaz really easy to pick on her coz most of tha time she’s such a brat and always throwin’ tantrums. For instance, she told ma maver and paver that she wanted 3 gifts for Christmas, and so we did. Guess wut she did when she finish’d openin’ all three of her gifts? Tha ungrateful li’l imp cried and complain’d coz she got 3 dresses and she want no clothes for Christmas. That’s just tha way she is and we love her by teasin’ her and so I told her not to worry for we’d be givin’ her tha bra she really wanted next Christmas. Wut Trixie hates most is to be told that she already needs to wear bra, and so she scream’d insults at me. Later as I wuz discussin’ skin whitening myths wit ma 2 other gurl twin cuzins, one of tha twins suggested takin’ a look at our 10-year-old cuzin’s armpits to see if her none-usage of deodorants had made her skin fairer than ours and again she threw a fit. She twisted and thrashed when we were within inches of her, and wud rather lie on tha dirt –good clothes and all- than have us take a look at her ‘pits. It came so that I began takin’ pity on her and almost told ma younger cuzins to stop but then she kick’d me hard on tha shin, and anyway used to be that I’m tha cuzin bein’ pick’d on by older cuzins so I let em be. She also seem to be enjoyin’ all tha attention we’re lavishin’ on her, our youngest kin.
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Got ma eyes a bit swollen yesterday from pleadin’ fo’ tha rides I’ll miss wit tha rents. Good thang I bought ma’self this novel li’l toy I found at tha mall. It’s a soothing eye mask [or so it says] which I bought for 44 pesos. You put it in tha ref for an hour and then you strap it on yer eyes. I think I’ve seen Jackielou Blanco use somthin’ which looks identical to it on TV which she strapp’d off her eyes tha moment she wuz suppos’d to be wakin’ up. Partly tha reason why I bought it. But I think maybe mine is not tha real deal. Coz when I took mine off 20 minutes or so, I open’d ma eyes to a foggy world. But then, when ya think about placin’ a glass of water on tha ref, it does tha same thing doesn’t it? I mean tha surface fogs and becomes thick wit moisture. Anyway, ma vision only fogs after tha first two minutes, it clears up eventually… but if soothin’ eye masks aren’t suppos’d to be that way, someone tell me, a’ite?
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Juz watch’d “What Lies Beneath” yesterday, and I could see a few loopholes of tha story. [like how could George Harrison become bloody when no one hit him, and how’d he reach tha stairs when he’s injured and why would he be so bent on killin’ his wife when he lov’d her and earlier saved her from death] Anyway, I’m okay wit it because like in tha Ring, I’ve figured out that a scary movie hafta have loopholes. Otherwise it wuden be scary if it were logical.
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Thursday, December 26
Tha Christmas Gift
Som’ time in November, I dream’d up this plan of gettin’ a gift that can’t be bought in stores fo’ ma clan. [bratty bro included] I wanted som’thin’ solitary yet grand for all of us to share. But I ain’t buyin’ em no appliance no more for ma bro’s gift of hot grillin’ device last year is still collectin’ dust while ma gift of two years ago [cordless phone] had barely reach’d a year of use before they banished it to a cabinet where it is now gatherin’ its own dust. And so I came up wit tha idea of an overnight for four in a hotel. Cute. But where? Wit it bein’ a holiday and all, I started ma yellow pages-thumbin’ wit …
Holiday Inn: P3,000 for 3 persons
Ma friend liked it here…
Dusit Nikko: P3,000+ [diden quite catch it] for two kids and two adults
I remembere’d likin it here so…
Oakwood: P8,000 [Huwhaaat??] I stopp’d listenin to tha details until I heard P10,000 [double Huwhaaat??!!]
Other hotels I found…
Hyatt: P3,000 on weekends and P3,500 on weekdays [or I think tha other way around]
Mandarin Oriental: P2,900[Christmas Special]
Century Park: ? [Never got through tha 2nd operator, 1st operator transferr’d me to an endless ringing line]
Bayview: P2,460 wit buffet for two
And tha winner is… Mandarin Oriental. Tha “Christmas Special” phrase caught ma attention, plus tha operator wuz nicer to me. Tha “same price on weekends and weekdays” bit also got to me. I call’d again today & found out that tha whole thang actually costs P3,450. And so I have a date wit ma clan on tha 29th. I’m forcibly volunteerin’ brover as tha official driver. Hope I could pull it out. Hope tha ‘rents won’t protest if I start depositing em on tha car. Yeah..and I hope I could survive wit bread and water fo’ tha rest of ma days. Unless some hotel manager or any of that sort read this, take pity, and decides to gimme a discount on his hotel on tha same date.
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After days of stalking, I fin’lly got to talk to ma thesis adviser. Probably fed up of ma harassment two days ago, he promis’d to call today. I also sent him a text message {Sir, tawag na kayo!} just to be sure. Here are bits of our conversation:
me: “Hello?”
thesis adviser: “Good afternoon, pwede po bang makausap…?” [May I speak with…]
me {interrupting}: “Hi, sir!”
thesis adviser: “O, si Sunshine na ba’to?” [Is this Sunshine?]
me: “Opo.”
thesis adviser: “O, kamusta na thesis mo? [How’s your thesis?] Merry Christmas.”
me: “Merry Christmas. Sir, kailangan po kasi may hypothesis ang thesis. Eh may naisip po sana ako...Yadda yadda yadda [I then proceeded explainin’ wut I plann’d to do wit ma thesis witout pausin’ to catch ma breath]
thesis adviser: “Ganito na lang, maghanap ka muna ng mga similar thesis ng journ tapos tingnan mo yung hypothesis nila and yung methods na ginamit tapos tsaka mo na lang ulit ako i-text. Kasi baka mabaril tayo sa defense pag hindi pala pede ang ginamit mong method.”
He actually said “tayo” as in “us”. Diden realize we’re on tha same side…that he’s on my side. All right! We’re a team!
Som’ time in November, I dream’d up this plan of gettin’ a gift that can’t be bought in stores fo’ ma clan. [bratty bro included] I wanted som’thin’ solitary yet grand for all of us to share. But I ain’t buyin’ em no appliance no more for ma bro’s gift of hot grillin’ device last year is still collectin’ dust while ma gift of two years ago [cordless phone] had barely reach’d a year of use before they banished it to a cabinet where it is now gatherin’ its own dust. And so I came up wit tha idea of an overnight for four in a hotel. Cute. But where? Wit it bein’ a holiday and all, I started ma yellow pages-thumbin’ wit …
Holiday Inn: P3,000 for 3 persons
Ma friend liked it here…
Dusit Nikko: P3,000+ [diden quite catch it] for two kids and two adults
I remembere’d likin it here so…
Oakwood: P8,000 [Huwhaaat??] I stopp’d listenin to tha details until I heard P10,000 [double Huwhaaat??!!]
Other hotels I found…
Hyatt: P3,000 on weekends and P3,500 on weekdays [or I think tha other way around]
Mandarin Oriental: P2,900[Christmas Special]
Century Park: ? [Never got through tha 2nd operator, 1st operator transferr’d me to an endless ringing line]
Bayview: P2,460 wit buffet for two
And tha winner is… Mandarin Oriental. Tha “Christmas Special” phrase caught ma attention, plus tha operator wuz nicer to me. Tha “same price on weekends and weekdays” bit also got to me. I call’d again today & found out that tha whole thang actually costs P3,450. And so I have a date wit ma clan on tha 29th. I’m forcibly volunteerin’ brover as tha official driver. Hope I could pull it out. Hope tha ‘rents won’t protest if I start depositing em on tha car. Yeah..and I hope I could survive wit bread and water fo’ tha rest of ma days. Unless some hotel manager or any of that sort read this, take pity, and decides to gimme a discount on his hotel on tha same date.
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After days of stalking, I fin’lly got to talk to ma thesis adviser. Probably fed up of ma harassment two days ago, he promis’d to call today. I also sent him a text message {Sir, tawag na kayo!} just to be sure. Here are bits of our conversation:
me: “Hello?”
thesis adviser: “Good afternoon, pwede po bang makausap…?” [May I speak with…]
me {interrupting}: “Hi, sir!”
thesis adviser: “O, si Sunshine na ba’to?” [Is this Sunshine?]
me: “Opo.”
thesis adviser: “O, kamusta na thesis mo? [How’s your thesis?] Merry Christmas.”
me: “Merry Christmas. Sir, kailangan po kasi may hypothesis ang thesis. Eh may naisip po sana ako...Yadda yadda yadda [I then proceeded explainin’ wut I plann’d to do wit ma thesis witout pausin’ to catch ma breath]
thesis adviser: “Ganito na lang, maghanap ka muna ng mga similar thesis ng journ tapos tingnan mo yung hypothesis nila and yung methods na ginamit tapos tsaka mo na lang ulit ako i-text. Kasi baka mabaril tayo sa defense pag hindi pala pede ang ginamit mong method.”
He actually said “tayo” as in “us”. Diden realize we’re on tha same side…that he’s on my side. All right! We’re a team!
Monday, December 23
Stephen Speaks fun fact: found out sumthin' about tha band that sang passenger's seat... turns out they got their name from tha words that one of tha band member [TJ] read on a billboard. The billboard supposedly read "Tonight, Stephen speaks". Supposedly, tha Stephen guy made a speech before he wuz stoned to death, thus givin' TJ a name for his band. [Heard this all from 89.9 TM]
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Dear Santa List
1]get ma thesis done. [if not all, at least a chapter]
2]have Grimace tha mascot for a pet.
3]alternative acoustic version CD's.
4]lotsa great film VCD'S for ma movie illiteracy.
5]subscription to DSL internet.
6]gerbera flowers.
7]St. Marks and Spencer lingerie.
8]a certificate for a reading wit an authentic fortune-teller/palm-reader.
9]a full body massage at a good spa.
10]Haagen Daz ice cream.
11]an airconditioner for ma room.
12]bath oils.
13]books.
14]get someone volunteer to do tha flash animations i want for ma site for free.
15]Dulcinea pastries.
16]laptop or any computer as long as i don't hafta share wit ma bro.
17]rice wine.
18]Meiji dark chocolate coated almonds.
19]Yupi gummy candies.
20]Piscean boyfriend.
21]a good sense of direction so i could find ma way to places.
**note to Santa**: don't be sorry if you can't git 'em for me on Christmas. there is always ma birthday next month. =)
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Dear Santa List
1]get ma thesis done. [if not all, at least a chapter]
2]have Grimace tha mascot for a pet.
3]alternative acoustic version CD's.
4]lotsa great film VCD'S for ma movie illiteracy.
5]subscription to DSL internet.
6]gerbera flowers.
7]St. Marks and Spencer lingerie.
8]a certificate for a reading wit an authentic fortune-teller/palm-reader.
9]a full body massage at a good spa.
10]Haagen Daz ice cream.
11]an airconditioner for ma room.
12]bath oils.
13]books.
14]get someone volunteer to do tha flash animations i want for ma site for free.
15]Dulcinea pastries.
16]laptop or any computer as long as i don't hafta share wit ma bro.
17]rice wine.
18]Meiji dark chocolate coated almonds.
19]Yupi gummy candies.
20]Piscean boyfriend.
21]a good sense of direction so i could find ma way to places.
**note to Santa**: don't be sorry if you can't git 'em for me on Christmas. there is always ma birthday next month. =)
Saturday, December 21
Friday, December 20
So wut if we diden make it to tha pre-employment exam? Pardner and me had a great time elsewhere. Glorietta wuz wit in walkin’ distance from tha block-rockin’ employin’ place. Havin’ a somewhat thick wad of mint wit me encouraged me to buy tha first cute pair of earrings I saw. Good thang we dunno where to go and wandered into a museum or I might’ve come home penniless wit g havin a sale and all. For some reason, Ruth seem’d really bent on goin and so we went. ‘Twaz a museum fill’d wit dioramas of Philippine history and we had fun makin’ fun of oversized cats, miniature people wit mongoloid expressions, and furnitures unproportioned to their owners. But we spent more time and had more fun at tha museum’s extension where we learn’d the basics of… sign language! ‘Twaz really kehwl coz aside from watchin’ how it’s done on tha computer screen, two deaf studes from Benilde really took time to teach us and make us get each hand signal right despite our retard learning skills. They were so nice that I felt like makin’ “kwento” and tellin’ ‘em that I have a deaf li’l boy cousin too –only I dunno how. I wonder if they understand and know how to gesture/writeTagalog since most books are in English –only I dunno how to ask. I also wanna ask how they made kehwl flash animations and if they could help me wit ma webpage. [Their skills such as web page design, animation, and art were also showcased on tha computer.]
Wednesday, December 18
I promis'd ma'self I will never post a song on this blog. Never post a...
On the 8th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a pair of cloey shades & a diamond belly ring
On the 7th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a nice back rub and he massaged my feet
On the 6th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a crotch eye git with dirty denim jeans
On the 5th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a poem that he wrote for me
The the feelin' that I feel is so good
He makes me feel so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
If he only knew what he does to me
My man, my man, my baby
Oh he makes me feel so lovely, so sexy
I'm so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
How I love him for his generousity
My man, my man, my baby
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (wooooooooaaaaaaahhhh)
Yes it feels like x-mas
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (the spirit of x-mas)
Yes it feels like x-mas
On the 4th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a candlelit dinner just me & my honey
On the 3rd day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a gift certificate to get my favorite CD's
On the 2nd day of x-mas my baby gave to me
the keys to a CLK Mercedes
On the 1st day of x-mas my baby gave to me
quality T-I-M-E
If it feels like x-mas
Yes it's x-mas
Bro's x-mas
Mom's x-mas
Dad's x-mas
Bro's x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Farrah's x-mas
Beyonce's x-mas
Kelly's x-mas
mom's x-mas
dad's x-mas
bro's x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Feels like x-mas
...Well, Christmas is an exception.. ain't it? Wish co lan someone will gimme a CD certificate or kahit a poem for Christmas.
On the 8th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a pair of cloey shades & a diamond belly ring
On the 7th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a nice back rub and he massaged my feet
On the 6th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a crotch eye git with dirty denim jeans
On the 5th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a poem that he wrote for me
The the feelin' that I feel is so good
He makes me feel so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
If he only knew what he does to me
My man, my man, my baby
Oh he makes me feel so lovely, so sexy
I'm so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
How I love him for his generousity
My man, my man, my baby
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (wooooooooaaaaaaahhhh)
Yes it feels like x-mas
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like x-mas (the spirit of x-mas)
Yes it feels like x-mas
On the 4th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a candlelit dinner just me & my honey
On the 3rd day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a gift certificate to get my favorite CD's
On the 2nd day of x-mas my baby gave to me
the keys to a CLK Mercedes
On the 1st day of x-mas my baby gave to me
quality T-I-M-E
If it feels like x-mas
Yes it's x-mas
Bro's x-mas
Mom's x-mas
Dad's x-mas
Bro's x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Farrah's x-mas
Beyonce's x-mas
Kelly's x-mas
mom's x-mas
dad's x-mas
bro's x-mas
Feels like x-mas
Feels like x-mas
...Well, Christmas is an exception.. ain't it? Wish co lan someone will gimme a CD certificate or kahit a poem for Christmas.
Gusto cong maglaba. Gusto cong maglakad ng mahabang mahaba.. mga tatlong kalye. Gusto cong maglinis ng bahay. Gusto cong gumawa ng kahit na ano basta pisikal -baka sakaling maalis ang mental strain & stress na dala ng aking mabait na thesis. Ayoco nan mag-isip. Aco na lan magpipintura ng bagong tindahan ni maver na tinatrabaho ng mga karpintero ngayon.
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