That's why it's hard for me to imagine that back in high school, I actually made the first move to let a guy I barely knew that I liked him.
The event was brought about by one simple incident that happened a few days before. It was right after our ACP (Aerospace Cadet of the Philippines) class when one of the girls in my class made a joke as we stood near the school gate. Being the slow wit that I was, I only got the joke when everyone else left, and as I looked out the gate while finally getting the joke and a smile slowly spreading on my lips, I suddenly found myself looking at a guy from my batch who also smiled back at me. Looking around me to check if there was anyone else, I was embarrassed to find that I was alone and that the guy from my batch probably thought I was hitting on him. But more than being embarrassed, I also found that I fell into some form of trance with his smile and that although I've seen him around and paid no attention to him before, suddenly I can't forget his smile.
So much so that when our school held a recollection event for all the seniors in the batch and they asked us to give red ribboned candles for love, I acted on impulse and had my love candle delivered to him, never mind that we never had a class together nor spoke a word to each other in all our elementary and high school years in school. I didn't even think of what my friends or his friends will think, or what he himself will think or whether he has a girlfriend in our batch...I just wanted to give him something for his smile.