Monday, October 20

Lose Ambition In Love

When I love, I am not ambitious. I don’t go dreaming about other men who could be Kinder. Richer. Gentler. Handsomer. More Fun. More Mature. I become content for One. I love exclusively and only for that single person whom my heart has already hailed King. I think I t is important to lose ambition when in love. When you are with someone and you want to marry that person then you have Lost Ambition For Love. On tha other hand, if you are wit Someone Who Has Lost Ambition For Love and who is wanting to marry you but you’re not sure and feelings of uneasiness arise over you then you are Ambitious In Love. You are still hoping for a Kinder. Richer. Gentler. Handsomer. More Fun. More Mature, etc. mate and therefore you are Not Really In Love. Go and have your Roll In the Grass. Go and Fish on the Pond. You are not ready yet to Lose Ambition For Love. Just remember that if you are to be Ambitious In Love, then you will have to lose someone. Do not weep. It is a sacrifice for Ambition.
Random assesment of yours truly from Bestfriend Allan:

1. Sabi sayo me pasok ka ng Sabado eh! [When I told him I have a coverage one Saturday]
2. Naniwala ka kaya dun! Pag nagbibigay ka ng oras, naniniwala ka! Eh kinakausap mo eh! [After I denied believing the sincerity/intentions of a suitor who work’d in Malacanang]
3. Pumatol ka kasi sa cute! Mga pinapatulan mo mga mukhang nakikita pag labas ng pintuan!
4. Ang galling mo nga kumanta, nanuot sa mga ugat ng utak ko! [After I sang a high pitched song]
I will not go out, much less have a relationship wit:

1. Boylets who call me "babe". [I do not enjoy it any more than they do bein' call'd a boylet]
2. Boys whom I don't really know yet.
3. Boys who act "weird" by behaving like #1; act libidinous; acting annoyingly flirty thru superficial kumaen ka na/mwah/ingat/et. al text msgs.
4. Boys who are chasing 2 "rabbits". [when you chase 2, you’ll never get 1]
5. Boys whom I've –in some way– profess’d love for and reacted by tellin' me I shud continue to be weak for 'em or tellin' me I shud juz understand 'em.
6. Boys I LOVE who won't hold my hand/put their arms around me/display affection towards me in public.
7. Boys who are friends wit their exes and continue to see their exes regularly.
8. Boys who watch porn movies wit their gurl cousins.
9. Boys who sleep next to gurl officemates during lunch.
10. Boys I LOVE who don't want to be my boyfriend. But just want to be my boy space space friend.
11. Boys who tell me not to mention their names to anyone or to blog about them.
12. Boys who are "it’s complicated" on Friendster.
13. Boys who dedicate shoutouts/statuses/bulletin posts/etc. to some gurl who's obviously not me.
14. Boys who have flirty comments from gurls on their homepages.
15. Boys who don't reply on time. [Time, tide and 5h1n3 do not wait for any man.]
16. Boys who talk about their exes in the present tense like they are still their girl friends.
17. Boys whom – when ask'd wut they had loved about the last gurl they have loved – will reply and describe in 3/3 text messages just how amazing she was [or shall we say is].
18. Boys who will try to kiss me the first chance/meeting they get.
19. Boys I gave chances to in tha past but who blew their chances by not behaving up to expectations.
20. Boys who act all emo and angsty and "I’m-in-terrible-painy". I did not give 'em any pain yet. So why don’t they just git outta my sight and run after their true loves and make things happen rather than acting all whiny and punishing every’un around em
.21. Boys who can sleep without replying to a text message from me/Boys who won't let me put tha phone down first. Even when I've told em I'm gonna sleep, they should still try to be tha one that texts last. And even when they're sleepy, they should be happy am spending ma last awake moment wit em, hence let me put it down first.

Saturday, October 18

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
--Leona Lewis

Thursday, October 2

Resigning

For the duration of a hundred days, I've given you good dreams every night, kept you safe from harm, gave you good vibes, given you my favorite cloud, shielded you with my wings, even gave you a grace period of 45 more days since we stopp'd speakin. But now it's time I take a new charge under my wings. Please quell your lunatic child of God thoughts and be good on your own. I am letting you fend for yourself. A special child needs my care. I hereby tender my resignation as your guardian angel.