Sunday, February 5

Hey there dear brother, I know you’re not yet home but wud ya happen to kno wer ma fifty eight fuckin’ downloaded mp3s went? Ya kno’, those under tha ‘slow’ folder? Tha ones I listen to when I need to chill? Vonda Shepherd, Shanice, Hall&Oates, Melanie, Patti Austin, Laura Branigan? Tha ones I had a hard time tryin to find & stays up for dl-in’ in our ancient computer? And I’ve juz checkd tha computer mem’ry & suddenly it has 1.63GB free space when it used to barely reach 800MB… wonder where all those free space came from? Hmn.. really mysterious! But you kno wut? Never mind! Forget it! I’ll juz… Wait,wut are these mp3 icons on tha desktop? Prolly yours, brotha deah? Oh. *Oops!* I’ve deleted it! And look! Tha mouse click’d ‘Recycle Bin’.. and.. emptied it. How clumsy of me! And let’s see wut’z this folder doin here? Prolly beenhere fo’ more than a year unused? I highly recommend we remove it. Of course am shoore you have backup of these files which look like sample flash works or sumthin.. pretty nonsense actually! And when you deleted ma sample writings last year.. diden you save a back-up of it for me? F’kors you did! You’re juz plannin’ to surprise me sometime one of these days by presenting me a copy of all that writings suddenly, you little joker, you! Heheh! Am all smiles now. So, see? I never git angry unlike some quarreling sibs. We’re so lucky… ain’t we? Wait, lemme juz empty tis one more folder for you.. See? I even do yer chores for you! See, 3.46 space of free GB! Me, angry? Hell, no! I never git mad! Wutz this VCD doin.. Nice looking cov… Why, it juz flew and threw itself across tha room! Must be some pretty strong wind today, anotha one juz followd. Oh, bro’s here. Lez ask him if he has seen wer ma mp3s in tha pc has gone to. Apparently he’s asleep already. He tells me he diden kno& to find ma’self someone else to talk to. Very well, big bro! Mebbe more computer cleanin’ for ya…

Ryan, I need you to download 58 mp3’s fo’ me…

Thursday, February 2

No, you do not want a relationship because you are afraid/do not want to hurt another person. You do not want a relationship because you wanna be able to hurt others freely and ‘guiltlessly’.

Wednesday, February 1

I like tha feeling of someone humouring me... giving in, giving way -no questions asked. Trusting me no matter how silly a request I have. For all ma friends who had given in to me @ one silly point or anotha, thank y'all. Really means a lot to me. Luv ya!
When it's your año dia, y'all shud be naiz to Tha Goddess Self even if others fail to bow before ya so last Wed, i've gone & search'd fo' ma birthday meaning on tha net. Here's wut I came up wit...

Born today, on the 25th of January:
Like all Aquarians, this golden bird is more pursued than pursuing. Too clever to let vanity go to her sparkling head, her only problem is heedlessness. Half the world seems to want to capture her, maybe with the intention of shutting the door of the gilded cage. Captured she may even stay for a while, laughing and entertaining, bewitching with her cleverness, beguiling with her foresight. But then the resonance of the night recedes. And around this bright creature the starlit or moonlit dome sparkles, suddenly seeming to disdain her capturer. Suddenly January 25 takes fright and is gone, leaving a lot of sadness in her wake. Both sexes are the same. To would-be lovers they seem a fantastic discovery. It's astonishing that somebody so come hither isn't tucked up in a long term relationship. But there's a reason for everything and with this winter child it's boredom and an easily sparked interest in something or somebody new. This is one of the few unutterably glamorous creatures of the night sky who makes truly platonic friendship work. Although they may be ignoring the secret lusts of a 'friend', the relationship is usually worth the desirer's self-discipline, because then at least they know that January 25 will always be available. At work, find them in the media or tourism, where their charm takes them to high places and smooths the path for original thinking and deals. Bosses love them because their charisma is such that others want to throw money at them, ideal for January 25's employers. Some stay with a partner for life, but most are serial mankillers (or ladykillers). Only children can command their total commitment. Often this individual finds himself as a single parent, but January 25s make terrific fathers and mothers and their offspring grow up as balanced as the scales of justice. While this person may be an earthquake in romantic love, a child's needs keep them steady.

January 25 is slightly psychic, but naughty with it and likes to wander about the British Isles frightening himself and companions by ghost spotting, at which both sexes are remarkably good. Favourite spots include Elton Hall, Cambridgeshire, haunted by a gambler's ghost who would kidnap and kill guests for the money in their wallet. Or the dark and dangerous grounds of Belvoir Castle, Leicestershire, supposedly haunted by three witches, executed for murdering the sixth Earl of Rutland's two infant sons, also rumoured to appear. January 25 is more likely than most to find a ghost so only the stout-hearted should go with them.

A birthday on the twenty-fifth day of the month indicates a naturally prophetic and intuitive person with a strong leaning toward the occult. You tend to conceal your true feelings and as a result are not always understood. Artistically gifted, you can commercialize almost any area of art to which you are inclined. Success can also be enjoyed in the professions, business or the constructive side of politics. You tend to be vacillating and inconsistent, and until you overcome this tendency your affairs will suffer. It's imperative that you learn to concentrate, force your mind into stability and away from a sense of inferiority, self-pity and depression. Your affections are your greatest weakness, and you must always stay on the straight and narrow, for there's a strong tendency to wander from the path that inclines you to preach morals but practice excess. Idealistic and hopeful, you need to work against laziness.

The January 25th person lives their life suffering in some way or another. This is accredited to the planet Neptune. Illusions that seen to offer some form of transcendence is another trait of this planet. The person born on this day has excellent skills and are usually great thinkers in the work place, but can spend some time warding off objectors. As a mate, the January 25th person is unique and captivating. The ideal mate of this person would offer a atmosphere of stability.

Generosity comes naturally to you -- it makes you feel good to make others feel good. There will, however, be occasions when it is necessary to say or do things that might make others feel bad, not because you want to but because honesty demands it. Truth is the foundation on which everything else must be built. Feelings are of secondary importance.

You work well with groups, especially this year. Together, you can make amazing breakthroughs. You're the brains behind the operation.