Sunday, January 3

Why Epilogue by Justin Hurwitz is my go-to song when I am sad

If there's only one track I can listen to when I am feeling heartbroken and sad, it has got to be this song. Even 5 years later, I feel every note and melody of this track with undeniable melancholy... A mild wave of sadness that feels its way around you tentatively, and yet wrings your heart with wistful memories of past loves and a pain that never really seem to go away.

When this movie was shown, I watched it with someone I loved whom I did not end up with, much like what happened with the protagonists of the movie. 

It was also a time in my life when I did not feel sure about anything at all: It was the 1st time I moved out and lived on my own and no one helped me move to my new place. My supervisor at work was giving me a hard time. Finally, I was dating a guy I adore who was also dating another girl and I do not know where I stand. 

Shortly after me and the guy I dated separated ways, I remember imagining the two of us dancing to the sad notes of Epilogue slowly, and he would give me one final spin before handing me over to my next dance partner, the next guy I will love. 

Even though I stopped having feelings for him years ago, I started associating the whole Lalaland soundtrack --especially Epilogue-- to feelings of sadness and longing for someone. So should you ever catch me playing this song or any other Lalaland track on Spotify, it means I am feeling quite sad. 


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