Tha researcher is fed up wit makin’ revisions. Tha researcher has no plans for further study. Tha researcher is movin’ on. Tha researcher is finally gettin’ a life again.
So long,thesis!
Tuesday, January 28
Monday, January 27
I woke up at 8am to screams of panic from the neighborhood, and ma 5’11 bro hovering over ma bed…
BRO: “May sunog! Daliiii…!!! Malapit sa’yo!” [“There’s a fire! Quick! It’s near your room!”]
ME [somewut amused]: “Sunog? Eh kapitbahay lang natin bumbero!” [“Fire? But we have tha firemen for our neighbors!”]
At which point I tried to close ma eyes again. Ma big bro is known fo’ trippin’ on me. most probably tha fire he wuz talkin’ about wuz miles away from us. But when maver told me to hurry, that’s when I started gathering things.
The First Thangs I Gathered In Tha Fire:
1] money & tha thesis that wuz due today.
2] tha Jergens lotion, milk bath , and deodorant in front of me. [in ma confusion, I grabb’d tha 1st thangs that came to view..]
3] ma school bag, ma favorite tops, ma diary & tha books I’ve bought which I haven’t read all went in a big yellow SM Supermarket plastic bag I found lyin’ around.
4] 4 pairs of jeans, a set of school uniform, 6 undies, and ma tape recorder which I found amidst ma undies were placed in ma Coca-cola bag along wit a dictionary & a thesaurus.
5] things I’ve borrow’d from ma friends: ruth’s Gone With The Wind and pam’s Picture Perfect vcds.
Maver stared at me as I emerged from tha house carryin’ a plastic bag wit wut I thought wuz relief to see her only daughter alive and not consumed by flames. Wrong. “Ano ba yan! Bat ganyan ang hitsura mo? Nakakahiya sa kapitbahay! At bat dyan mo nilagay ang mga gamit mo? Ala ka bang bag?! [“Could you have dress’d any worse than that?”} she ask’d, starin’ at ma disheveled hair & tha 2 big holes of tha old P.E. shirt I slept in which exposed ma shoulders. [“..And why’d u put your things in a plastic bag? Don’t you have any bags?!”]
A minute later I found her cryin’ over an altogether diff’rent reason...
MA: “Pano na ang pangkabuhayan natin? Dito lang tayo nabubuhay!” [“Wut will we live on?”] she cried, referring to our house, which is also home to 40 ladies and is our main source of income.
Tha house next to us wuz already cover’d in a thick fog. To make things light, I ask’d bro to take out his Cyber-shot-U to capture tha moment. Only, he can’t locate it. Meanwhile, Aling Melba & Aling Lorna,our good-hearted neighbors were already volunteerin’ to help us wit our things. Ma brover had already started disconnecting computer wires & wuz about to carry it off when mum told him to juz leave it alone & that we'll juz git another one.
An hour later, it wuz all over. An AM radio announcer announced that “tha fire in Sta. Mesa is mapping out and under control.”
Whew. Told em not to worry. I could’ve been burn’d alive too. Well, serves you right fo’ leavin' me… Wait, scratch that! I sound narcissistic! Of course I wuden have burn’d! I knew bettr than to sleep through a fire. And anyway, I have no plans on dyin’ today!
Sad thing ‘bout our neighbors’ house... their whole upstairs burn’d. Not tha house next to us, but tha 2nd house from us. Good thang no one wuz hurt although tha young lad sleepin’ in tha upstairs room got trapp’d beneath tha bars for a moment. The slipup? Faulty electrical wiring, of course.
BRO: “May sunog! Daliiii…!!! Malapit sa’yo!” [“There’s a fire! Quick! It’s near your room!”]
ME [somewut amused]: “Sunog? Eh kapitbahay lang natin bumbero!” [“Fire? But we have tha firemen for our neighbors!”]
At which point I tried to close ma eyes again. Ma big bro is known fo’ trippin’ on me. most probably tha fire he wuz talkin’ about wuz miles away from us. But when maver told me to hurry, that’s when I started gathering things.
The First Thangs I Gathered In Tha Fire:
1] money & tha thesis that wuz due today.
2] tha Jergens lotion, milk bath , and deodorant in front of me. [in ma confusion, I grabb’d tha 1st thangs that came to view..]
3] ma school bag, ma favorite tops, ma diary & tha books I’ve bought which I haven’t read all went in a big yellow SM Supermarket plastic bag I found lyin’ around.
4] 4 pairs of jeans, a set of school uniform, 6 undies, and ma tape recorder which I found amidst ma undies were placed in ma Coca-cola bag along wit a dictionary & a thesaurus.
5] things I’ve borrow’d from ma friends: ruth’s Gone With The Wind and pam’s Picture Perfect vcds.
Maver stared at me as I emerged from tha house carryin’ a plastic bag wit wut I thought wuz relief to see her only daughter alive and not consumed by flames. Wrong. “Ano ba yan! Bat ganyan ang hitsura mo? Nakakahiya sa kapitbahay! At bat dyan mo nilagay ang mga gamit mo? Ala ka bang bag?! [“Could you have dress’d any worse than that?”} she ask’d, starin’ at ma disheveled hair & tha 2 big holes of tha old P.E. shirt I slept in which exposed ma shoulders. [“..And why’d u put your things in a plastic bag? Don’t you have any bags?!”]
A minute later I found her cryin’ over an altogether diff’rent reason...
MA: “Pano na ang pangkabuhayan natin? Dito lang tayo nabubuhay!” [“Wut will we live on?”] she cried, referring to our house, which is also home to 40 ladies and is our main source of income.
Tha house next to us wuz already cover’d in a thick fog. To make things light, I ask’d bro to take out his Cyber-shot-U to capture tha moment. Only, he can’t locate it. Meanwhile, Aling Melba & Aling Lorna,our good-hearted neighbors were already volunteerin’ to help us wit our things. Ma brover had already started disconnecting computer wires & wuz about to carry it off when mum told him to juz leave it alone & that we'll juz git another one.
An hour later, it wuz all over. An AM radio announcer announced that “tha fire in Sta. Mesa is mapping out and under control.”
Whew. Told em not to worry. I could’ve been burn’d alive too. Well, serves you right fo’ leavin' me… Wait, scratch that! I sound narcissistic! Of course I wuden have burn’d! I knew bettr than to sleep through a fire. And anyway, I have no plans on dyin’ today!
Sad thing ‘bout our neighbors’ house... their whole upstairs burn’d. Not tha house next to us, but tha 2nd house from us. Good thang no one wuz hurt although tha young lad sleepin’ in tha upstairs room got trapp’d beneath tha bars for a moment. The slipup? Faulty electrical wiring, of course.
Sunday, January 26
An explanation of wut i've been lately by Chris:
Look to the audience. If there isn't one, beware. If it's you, unamaze yourself. Disenthrall. Whatever it takes. Or else you're going down, for good, and the waves will close silently over you, a tribute to her bountiful care and kindness. Her unparalleled, unquestionable beauty. The modern term is narcissism. From next to nothing, we construct a world, a world in which we are esteemed.Supremely. Without question. Unconditionally. That's what we want.That's what all of us want when we're two years old. Some of us don't get it. Some of us learned to compromise. Ambiguity, slop in the system, neglect, disorder. Life. Genuine acceptance. But there's another kind of "acceptance" which is supplied by others. Proffered willingly, love. Dangled as bait, desire. Doesn't matter. Makes no difference. All is taken as food. As fuel for an esteem of self that becomes an inverted religion. Disguised as spirit, a hunger so dark it remains forever hidden. So sealed, it admits nothing but itself.
Look to the audience. If there isn't one, beware. If it's you, unamaze yourself. Disenthrall. Whatever it takes. Or else you're going down, for good, and the waves will close silently over you, a tribute to her bountiful care and kindness. Her unparalleled, unquestionable beauty. The modern term is narcissism. From next to nothing, we construct a world, a world in which we are esteemed.Supremely. Without question. Unconditionally. That's what we want.That's what all of us want when we're two years old. Some of us don't get it. Some of us learned to compromise. Ambiguity, slop in the system, neglect, disorder. Life. Genuine acceptance. But there's another kind of "acceptance" which is supplied by others. Proffered willingly, love. Dangled as bait, desire. Doesn't matter. Makes no difference. All is taken as food. As fuel for an esteem of self that becomes an inverted religion. Disguised as spirit, a hunger so dark it remains forever hidden. So sealed, it admits nothing but itself.
Suddenly by Soraya
A thousand eyes lookin’ at me
But yours is the look that goes right through me
And I cannot hide from your stare
Should I let you win? Do I dare?
Some other hands have tried before
But yours is the touch that makes me want more
Cannot hide the urgency
To have you right here with me
Cause suddenly in my life
There’s something that’s got me mystified tonight
Cannot fight it but I can try to keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand words have tried to stay
Yours are the one who never fade away
I cannot hide from this sound
I am mesmerized feelin’ round and round and
Some other hearts have tried to steal mine
Yours is the one that I hold dear
I’ll do what it takes to keep you here
I’m a selfish fool but I have no fear
A thousand times I’ve tried to stay
Alone by pushing you away
Time after time, tear after tear,
Find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
As we struggled to find a source of this peace
Always end with your kiss
A thousand eyes lookin’ at me
But yours is the look that goes right through me
And I cannot hide from your stare
Should I let you win? Do I dare?
Some other hands have tried before
But yours is the touch that makes me want more
Cannot hide the urgency
To have you right here with me
Cause suddenly in my life
There’s something that’s got me mystified tonight
Cannot fight it but I can try to keep the wonder of it alive
A thousand words have tried to stay
Yours are the one who never fade away
I cannot hide from this sound
I am mesmerized feelin’ round and round and
Some other hearts have tried to steal mine
Yours is the one that I hold dear
I’ll do what it takes to keep you here
I’m a selfish fool but I have no fear
A thousand times I’ve tried to stay
Alone by pushing you away
Time after time, tear after tear,
Find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
As we struggled to find a source of this peace
Always end with your kiss
Saturday, January 25
Sunday, January 19
My Character Analysis From A Stranger:
This from a guy I chatted in ICQ wit for 30 minutes: ur a very naughty girl and entertaining one & seem 2 dislike men. u seem to have a lot of guts for a girl, and persuasive and menly[?] and annoying and hirap ligawan and dependent and u want the world to revolve on you, u toy with us but inspite of ur character ur a sweet lover and a thoughtfulll[triple "L"?] one.
Wuz not even hitting on him, i merely ask'd where he goes to school when he said: dami mo personality ha kita ko rin sayo na sobrang lambing mo bawasan mo yan
And finally,this when i merely reminded him that he should click "send" and not "enter" to send his messages: childish mo talaga
Ang tindi mo, tsong! You're not even interested in astrology and malayo naman course mo from psychology...I mean you're a guy and you're not dense! Wish half tha world would pay attention like ya do...
This from a guy I chatted in ICQ wit for 30 minutes: ur a very naughty girl and entertaining one & seem 2 dislike men. u seem to have a lot of guts for a girl, and persuasive and menly[?] and annoying and hirap ligawan and dependent and u want the world to revolve on you, u toy with us but inspite of ur character ur a sweet lover and a thoughtfulll[triple "L"?] one.
Wuz not even hitting on him, i merely ask'd where he goes to school when he said: dami mo personality ha kita ko rin sayo na sobrang lambing mo bawasan mo yan
And finally,this when i merely reminded him that he should click "send" and not "enter" to send his messages: childish mo talaga
Ang tindi mo, tsong! You're not even interested in astrology and malayo naman course mo from psychology...I mean you're a guy and you're not dense! Wish half tha world would pay attention like ya do...
Saturday, January 18
Got # 3 on ma list… Thanks, Santa! =)
18 songs all in all. Tha burn’d CD contain’d songs I specifically ask’d for like:
1] Don’t Speak by No Doubt –this song reminds me of ma second year high school days when I wuz infatuated wit a boy call’d Jed and when Gwen Stefani wuz ma absolute goddess.
2] Comfort In Your Strangeness by Cynthia Alexander –no specific reason except I juz really dig this song, spesh tha violin.
3] Suddenly by Soraya –an easy listenin’ song that chills ma mind.
4] Need To Be Next To You by Leigh Nash –this song wuz a fave when I wuz in 2nd year college & I cut a class wit a friend, design’d a huge banner for her, and sneak’d into tha empty dorm of her boyfriend where we decorated his and a certain miserable person’s room and taped tha banner I made professin’ ma friend’s love fo’ her guy where he could see it before slippin’ back to school. t'was on V-day when ma own luvlife suck’d.
5] Each Time by E-17 –this song gives me good vibes. also reminds me of someone I met in college named Raniel whose fave song it is.
6] Swallowed by Bush –a song by my former goddess Gwen’s god Gavin who also became my temporary male god of music. it also reminds of an era when men sported danglin’ chains from their pants everywhere you look’d.
7] Hey Hey by Tonya –an LSS –infecting fast song.
It also contain’d:
8] Come Away With Me by Norah Jones –i prefer “Don’t Know Why” but sumthin’ went wrong wit tha copy Santa burn’d. At least it’s a song of tha same artist.
9] Buses and Trains by ? –i diden ask for this one but I liked it juz tha same.
18 songs all in all. Tha burn’d CD contain’d songs I specifically ask’d for like:
1] Don’t Speak by No Doubt –this song reminds me of ma second year high school days when I wuz infatuated wit a boy call’d Jed and when Gwen Stefani wuz ma absolute goddess.
2] Comfort In Your Strangeness by Cynthia Alexander –no specific reason except I juz really dig this song, spesh tha violin.
3] Suddenly by Soraya –an easy listenin’ song that chills ma mind.
4] Need To Be Next To You by Leigh Nash –this song wuz a fave when I wuz in 2nd year college & I cut a class wit a friend, design’d a huge banner for her, and sneak’d into tha empty dorm of her boyfriend where we decorated his and a certain miserable person’s room and taped tha banner I made professin’ ma friend’s love fo’ her guy where he could see it before slippin’ back to school. t'was on V-day when ma own luvlife suck’d.
5] Each Time by E-17 –this song gives me good vibes. also reminds me of someone I met in college named Raniel whose fave song it is.
6] Swallowed by Bush –a song by my former goddess Gwen’s god Gavin who also became my temporary male god of music. it also reminds of an era when men sported danglin’ chains from their pants everywhere you look’d.
7] Hey Hey by Tonya –an LSS –infecting fast song.
It also contain’d:
8] Come Away With Me by Norah Jones –i prefer “Don’t Know Why” but sumthin’ went wrong wit tha copy Santa burn’d. At least it’s a song of tha same artist.
9] Buses and Trains by ? –i diden ask for this one but I liked it juz tha same.
Tuesday, January 14
Newspaper reporters are corpse flies. Not only do they lie, they also prey on the misery of others. ->Margaret Atwood
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Back To You (thesis)
Bat ganon? Parang andali ng chapter 5 ng thesis ko? Bat parang ang iksi ng 11 pages ko kumpara sa makakapal na tinitingnan ko? Bat ganon? Kumonsulta pala si Santa Susvilla sa isang libro bago sya gumawa ng survey questionnaires? Bat walang nagsabi sacen? Pano na yan? Inimbento ko lan ang mga tanong ko sa survey! At bakit ganon? Nangdaya rin ba si Joiz sa pagbibilang nya ng mga sagot ng makita niyang parang kulang ang ibang sagot? {mga panelists at adviser, lumayo-layo sa websayt ko!} Bat parang hindi mukhang totoo ang thesis ko? MALI YATA!!!!! Paktay!
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Back To You (thesis)
Bat ganon? Parang andali ng chapter 5 ng thesis ko? Bat parang ang iksi ng 11 pages ko kumpara sa makakapal na tinitingnan ko? Bat ganon? Kumonsulta pala si Santa Susvilla sa isang libro bago sya gumawa ng survey questionnaires? Bat walang nagsabi sacen? Pano na yan? Inimbento ko lan ang mga tanong ko sa survey! At bakit ganon? Nangdaya rin ba si Joiz sa pagbibilang nya ng mga sagot ng makita niyang parang kulang ang ibang sagot? {mga panelists at adviser, lumayo-layo sa websayt ko!} Bat parang hindi mukhang totoo ang thesis ko? MALI YATA!!!!! Paktay!
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Tuesday, January 7
Wut to do when ya hafta temporarily disconnect coz sumone's gotta use tha fon:
Click on pammy. =) Nominated once as tha blogger wit tha longest posts, shoorely, ya won't run outta thangs to read! [juz take a look at her scrollbar for proof] Atta Gurl P, we miss ya!
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Among one of tha first thangs I did in 2003:
1] ordered a vegetable in an expensive restau.
->found out spinach could actually taste good. [tasted like cheese] i guess any vegetable could taste good provided they are drown'd in some flavor til they don't taste anythin' like their real taste no more..
2] took a pre-employment test for a job that have nuthin' to do wit ma course.
3] tried to copy math test answers from ruth.
4] discover'd a like fo' answerin' flowchart tests.
5] did half of ma homework.
6] consumed half of tha ink of ma fave pen.
7] cursed a certain professor for makin' me consume ink of fave pen.
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I really don't get how ma maver can tolerate her fave soap opera [Habang Kapiling Ka]. They play'd tis terrible overly dramatic background music they play at every single scene which makes ya think of final confrontations between tha antagonist and tha central character of tha story when in fact tha maid is just combing her hair.
Click on pammy. =) Nominated once as tha blogger wit tha longest posts, shoorely, ya won't run outta thangs to read! [juz take a look at her scrollbar for proof] Atta Gurl P, we miss ya!
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Among one of tha first thangs I did in 2003:
1] ordered a vegetable in an expensive restau.
->found out spinach could actually taste good. [tasted like cheese] i guess any vegetable could taste good provided they are drown'd in some flavor til they don't taste anythin' like their real taste no more..
2] took a pre-employment test for a job that have nuthin' to do wit ma course.
3] tried to copy math test answers from ruth.
4] discover'd a like fo' answerin' flowchart tests.
5] did half of ma homework.
6] consumed half of tha ink of ma fave pen.
7] cursed a certain professor for makin' me consume ink of fave pen.
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I really don't get how ma maver can tolerate her fave soap opera [Habang Kapiling Ka]. They play'd tis terrible overly dramatic background music they play at every single scene which makes ya think of final confrontations between tha antagonist and tha central character of tha story when in fact tha maid is just combing her hair.
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