Friday, November 2
My body is old. It's a holiday and I wake up after 4 hours of sleep. I don't feel the least bit sleepy. I tried telling myself to sleep some more and get more rest, but all I end up doing is lie awake and wonder why I'm still awake. Figured I will never fall back to sleep and there's no sense forcing myself to sleep like a mother would to a child since I'm fully grown-up now and I have no use for all the extra sleep so here I am complaining and looking for someone to talk to.
Monday, October 29
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Monday, September 3
The cause of Kennedy Family Tragedy: Lobotomy of Rosemary Kennedy
Over lunch one day at work, conversation suddenly turned towards lobotomy. Lobotomy -which I haven't known of nor heard about in my life until that day- turns out to be a process they used to do in the olden times where they put a metal stick with spiralled ends inside your eye and push it up so it can reach your brain and they can tinker with it, or cut off some parts of it. Lobotomy was said to be used on mentally sick patients, specifically killers so that they will be less aggressive and to tame down their violent tendencies. Unfortunately, some people who undergo lobotomy turn into a vegetative state, with their minds reset back into infantile stage, turning them incoherent, paralyzed, drooling, staring blankly at walls for periods of time, and ridding them of any emotions.
I was so engrossed by the topic that over the weekend, I Googled it immensely. The first person that came up was Rosemary Kennedy, John F. Kennedy's sister. Rosemary Kennedy was said to have a lower IQ than the rest of the Kennedy siblings, around 90 which was pretty average, but apparently not enough for her father, Joe. At age 22, Rosemary became moody, and was prone to going out at night. Joe disapproved, and to sustain the good image of the Kennedys, he decided to put her daughter through a lobotomy procedure. At that time, lobotomy was just a new concept, and it still involves drilling holes into the skull and cutting through some parts of the brain, instead of the trans-orbital lobotomy which let the tool pass through the eyes.
During Rosemary's lobotomy, where she was put under mild anesthesia, she was asked by trial-and-error doctor Freeman to sing all throughout the lobotomy, and her response became their basis on how deep they were digging and cutting at her brain. They stopped when Rosemary's response became incoherent and she suddenly fell silent. -Now what kind of idiot doctor will only stop operating when his patient became paralyzed into muteness?! And what kind of idiot family would allow this to happen to their daughter?!
The lobotomy left Rosemary unable to take care of herself or do the simple task of dressing herself. She became incoherent and silent, staring into walls for periods of time, drooling, and more or less of a vegetative state. Her mind was like an infant's once again, and the only thing she could do was to identify herself.
Thank God I wasn't born in that era and I was spared from potential lobotomy! I remember being brought to a child psychologist in St. Luke's when I was acting bratty as a kid.
In 1961, Rosemary's father Joe had a stroke which was said to be his karma for masterminding the lobotomy of her daughter.
The irony of the stroke was in Joe's appearance. Half a century earlier he had allowed surgeons to give his daughter Rosemary a prefrontal lobotomy that had gone poorly. Her mind had been nearly destroyed, but more obvious were changes in her face and body. Joe, like his daughter, now had partial facial paralysis, a tendency to drool, a partially crippled body, and the inability to make intelligible statements. The obvious external damage Joe Kennedy had sustained was exactly the same as that of the child he had hidden away for five decades. (Schwarz, Joseph P. Kennedy, p. 425). -http://www.reformation.org/kennedy-assassination.html
According to this blog whose owner also felt deeply for Rosemary, during a reunion in 1975 with her younger sister Eunice, who had the most love for Rosemary out of all the other Kennedys, Eunice lost Rosemary while looking at some religious booklets in church. 5 hours later, penniless Rosemary was found 5 blocks away, preoccupied with window shopping on Michigan Avenue. She barely looked up as she said yes at the TV reporter who found her and asked her if she was looking for Eunice.
To end this post, here's a lovely song by Rasputina in tribute to Rosemary:
Rose K.
She doesn't know the man
I was so engrossed by the topic that over the weekend, I Googled it immensely. The first person that came up was Rosemary Kennedy, John F. Kennedy's sister. Rosemary Kennedy was said to have a lower IQ than the rest of the Kennedy siblings, around 90 which was pretty average, but apparently not enough for her father, Joe. At age 22, Rosemary became moody, and was prone to going out at night. Joe disapproved, and to sustain the good image of the Kennedys, he decided to put her daughter through a lobotomy procedure. At that time, lobotomy was just a new concept, and it still involves drilling holes into the skull and cutting through some parts of the brain, instead of the trans-orbital lobotomy which let the tool pass through the eyes.
During Rosemary's lobotomy, where she was put under mild anesthesia, she was asked by trial-and-error doctor Freeman to sing all throughout the lobotomy, and her response became their basis on how deep they were digging and cutting at her brain. They stopped when Rosemary's response became incoherent and she suddenly fell silent. -Now what kind of idiot doctor will only stop operating when his patient became paralyzed into muteness?! And what kind of idiot family would allow this to happen to their daughter?!
The lobotomy left Rosemary unable to take care of herself or do the simple task of dressing herself. She became incoherent and silent, staring into walls for periods of time, drooling, and more or less of a vegetative state. Her mind was like an infant's once again, and the only thing she could do was to identify herself.
Thank God I wasn't born in that era and I was spared from potential lobotomy! I remember being brought to a child psychologist in St. Luke's when I was acting bratty as a kid.
In 1961, Rosemary's father Joe had a stroke which was said to be his karma for masterminding the lobotomy of her daughter.
The irony of the stroke was in Joe's appearance. Half a century earlier he had allowed surgeons to give his daughter Rosemary a prefrontal lobotomy that had gone poorly. Her mind had been nearly destroyed, but more obvious were changes in her face and body. Joe, like his daughter, now had partial facial paralysis, a tendency to drool, a partially crippled body, and the inability to make intelligible statements. The obvious external damage Joe Kennedy had sustained was exactly the same as that of the child he had hidden away for five decades. (Schwarz, Joseph P. Kennedy, p. 425). -http://www.reformation.org/kennedy-assassination.html
According to this blog whose owner also felt deeply for Rosemary, during a reunion in 1975 with her younger sister Eunice, who had the most love for Rosemary out of all the other Kennedys, Eunice lost Rosemary while looking at some religious booklets in church. 5 hours later, penniless Rosemary was found 5 blocks away, preoccupied with window shopping on Michigan Avenue. She barely looked up as she said yes at the TV reporter who found her and asked her if she was looking for Eunice.
To end this post, here's a lovely song by Rasputina in tribute to Rosemary:
Rose K.
She doesn't know the man
Who tries to push her wheelchair in the sand.
She just looks out to sea.
He's talking endlessly.
Oh, why won't he shutup?
I take my medicine
I crush the paper cup.
Oh, maybe he's my son
And he's coming to set me free.
She knows that she forgot
That there's a story and she
Can't recall the plot.
Of course her family fought
Over the furniture.
Oh, I don't know why they
Have taken all my favorite things away.
But one thing that's for sure
I don't know what they were.
They say a stone is a marker
And that it has weight.
They say it's solid
But it can deteriorate.
The air is like a hand
Reminding her of all the things she's planned.
Like air that thought is gone
Never to come again.
We came out to the beach to find the mind I've lost and cannot reach.
I used to keep it here.
It was much cleaner then.
They say a rose is a flower
And that it is red.
It blooms, it grows, it wilts
And then it is dead.
They say a stone is a marker
And that it has weight.
They say it's solid
But it can deteriorate.
They say a rose is a flower
And that it is red.
It blooms, it grows, it wilts
And then it is dead.
Oh, Rose Kennedy.
She just looks out to sea.
He's talking endlessly.
Oh, why won't he shutup?
I take my medicine
I crush the paper cup.
Oh, maybe he's my son
And he's coming to set me free.
She knows that she forgot
That there's a story and she
Can't recall the plot.
Of course her family fought
Over the furniture.
Oh, I don't know why they
Have taken all my favorite things away.
But one thing that's for sure
I don't know what they were.
They say a stone is a marker
And that it has weight.
They say it's solid
But it can deteriorate.
The air is like a hand
Reminding her of all the things she's planned.
Like air that thought is gone
Never to come again.
We came out to the beach to find the mind I've lost and cannot reach.
I used to keep it here.
It was much cleaner then.
They say a rose is a flower
And that it is red.
It blooms, it grows, it wilts
And then it is dead.
They say a stone is a marker
And that it has weight.
They say it's solid
But it can deteriorate.
They say a rose is a flower
And that it is red.
It blooms, it grows, it wilts
And then it is dead.
Oh, Rose Kennedy.
Monday, August 13
Saltimbanco in Manila
Cirque du Soleil's production of Saltimbanco [which translates to "to jump on a bench"] in Manila is like traveling back in time, back when everybody loves going to the circus. Specifically, the jester's vaudeville-like act makes me feel like I am experiencing a show once enjoyed by my grandparents. It made me a bit nostalgic.
Incidentally, I was also reminded of Dolphy more than once by a fully made up clown prancing down the stage with white paint all over his face. The show is very diverse, never just focusing on one single element. It has trapeze acts, comical acts, a contortionist act, etc.
My best friend Ruth loved the Chinese Pole Act, which does not surprise me since she loves watching live cheer dance school competitions, another form of symmetric group performance. With their colorful chameleon costumes, their reptile cocking of heads and stare, it really was hypnotic to watch them simultaneously in action. I'm not sure if it was part of the Chinese Pole Act, but I also loved it when one of the men climbed up the pole using just his 2 hands, with his body as far away from the pole as possible as if he can just throw his weight around and around the pole while climbing using his 2 hands. He made it seem so easy that I itched to try it for myself, feeling that I would have tried it that moment, had they allowed the audience to try their apparatus during intermissions.
One of my favorites -however dizzying it was for me to watch and however painful for my craning neck- was the woman in blue doing the trapeze. I couldn't find a solo pic of her, though. Perhaps, she really is part of this duo trapeze act. Maybe her partner couldn't make it so she did a solo. But anyway, I liked her. Perhaps, it was for the graceful lady she signified, or the power of being a woman and being alone up in the highest part of the arena, doing dizzyingly fast acrobatics and never failing. Simply put, she made me proud to be a woman just by watching her, even if i pains me to think of how many Bonamines she had to swallow and how long she has to endure hunger to be able to roll in the air like she did.
The Boleadoras consisted of two very rhythmic individuals who played the drum, tap-danced and skillfully twisted around a weight-attached clicketing cord in coordination with each other and to a certain rhythm. The woman, who was taller than her very 'brusko' partner stole my attention more, with her very expressive face during the whole act. She raised an eyebrow or two, alternated between smiling for us and pursing her lips in concentration, vigorously nodded her head with a flourish every time a new rhythm started, and held her chin up high in proud confidence as she went through her routine. Her partner, whose curly long mane, abundant facial hair and grim expression remind me of Tagalog movie goons like 'Amay Bisaya', although much faster, bored me with his bland, non-changing expression. The quicker he gets through his routine, the blander and more bored his face goes. The Boleadoras Act happened right before intermission time, and being a percussion fan/heavy beater myself, I re-enacted the rhythm in my head and tapped my feet to periodic moments as I headed out with Ruth to get snacks and refreshment.
Ruth and I agreed unanimously agreed that this was our favourite...
The show also had a comic relief portion, thanks to these 2 jesters who tried to re-enact the Macho Men Act.
A key aspect of any Cirque du Soleil production, I've noted, is the fully made-up clown faces on the performers. At first I wondered why they make such an effort in painting their faces, especially since it could scare away some children from the audience [I was a bit terrified myself.] But then, as I observed that no way could anyone ever recognize them because their features are masked behind elaborately drawn shapes, I figured out that that was really the point. They cover their faces so much, perhaps, to allow them the privacy they need in their off-stage lives. So they can shop, dine, and travel anywhere without fear of being interrupted by a fan.
Incidentally, I was also reminded of Dolphy more than once by a fully made up clown prancing down the stage with white paint all over his face. The show is very diverse, never just focusing on one single element. It has trapeze acts, comical acts, a contortionist act, etc.
My best friend Ruth loved the Chinese Pole Act, which does not surprise me since she loves watching live cheer dance school competitions, another form of symmetric group performance. With their colorful chameleon costumes, their reptile cocking of heads and stare, it really was hypnotic to watch them simultaneously in action. I'm not sure if it was part of the Chinese Pole Act, but I also loved it when one of the men climbed up the pole using just his 2 hands, with his body as far away from the pole as possible as if he can just throw his weight around and around the pole while climbing using his 2 hands. He made it seem so easy that I itched to try it for myself, feeling that I would have tried it that moment, had they allowed the audience to try their apparatus during intermissions.
One of my favorites -however dizzying it was for me to watch and however painful for my craning neck- was the woman in blue doing the trapeze. I couldn't find a solo pic of her, though. Perhaps, she really is part of this duo trapeze act. Maybe her partner couldn't make it so she did a solo. But anyway, I liked her. Perhaps, it was for the graceful lady she signified, or the power of being a woman and being alone up in the highest part of the arena, doing dizzyingly fast acrobatics and never failing. Simply put, she made me proud to be a woman just by watching her, even if i pains me to think of how many Bonamines she had to swallow and how long she has to endure hunger to be able to roll in the air like she did.
The Boleadoras consisted of two very rhythmic individuals who played the drum, tap-danced and skillfully twisted around a weight-attached clicketing cord in coordination with each other and to a certain rhythm. The woman, who was taller than her very 'brusko' partner stole my attention more, with her very expressive face during the whole act. She raised an eyebrow or two, alternated between smiling for us and pursing her lips in concentration, vigorously nodded her head with a flourish every time a new rhythm started, and held her chin up high in proud confidence as she went through her routine. Her partner, whose curly long mane, abundant facial hair and grim expression remind me of Tagalog movie goons like 'Amay Bisaya', although much faster, bored me with his bland, non-changing expression. The quicker he gets through his routine, the blander and more bored his face goes. The Boleadoras Act happened right before intermission time, and being a percussion fan/heavy beater myself, I re-enacted the rhythm in my head and tapped my feet to periodic moments as I headed out with Ruth to get snacks and refreshment.
Ruth and I agreed unanimously agreed that this was our favourite...
The show also had a comic relief portion, thanks to these 2 jesters who tried to re-enact the Macho Men Act.
A key aspect of any Cirque du Soleil production, I've noted, is the fully made-up clown faces on the performers. At first I wondered why they make such an effort in painting their faces, especially since it could scare away some children from the audience [I was a bit terrified myself.] But then, as I observed that no way could anyone ever recognize them because their features are masked behind elaborately drawn shapes, I figured out that that was really the point. They cover their faces so much, perhaps, to allow them the privacy they need in their off-stage lives. So they can shop, dine, and travel anywhere without fear of being interrupted by a fan.
Tuesday, July 31
Sick Genes
Other people usually chance upon each other at shopping malls, restaurants, and bars. Two weeks ago, I chanced upon an uncle who lives faraway in the E.R. section of a hospital. I was there for treatment of unbearable pain in my ears that wouldn't go away for days while Tito Lito was there because they have to puncture his stomach so he can eat cause he can't eat the normal way anymore. Our family is not a healthy bunch.
Saturday, June 30
I don't always blog about everything
Like the numerous crinkles on your face right below your eyes and how it makes me content with life.
Like the almost-dimples you have I once noticed [or imagined in a moment of adoration] when you smiled.
How I happily patted your hair in place on the ride home with you. [which I am plotting on cutting soon]
Like the almost-dimples you have I once noticed [or imagined in a moment of adoration] when you smiled.
How I happily patted your hair in place on the ride home with you. [which I am plotting on cutting soon]
Thursday, May 31
"Seen (insert time)" meaning on Facebook Chat:
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Wednesday, May 23
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Wednesday, May 16
Drugs don't work they just make you worse but I know I'll see your face again [A Focalin Review]
On a spur-of-the-moment dare by lunatic office mates insisting that I have severe ADHD, I took a supposedly ridiculously expensive ADHD pill [stolen from the crazy officemate's rich ADHD-infested friend] this morning.
Effects are as follows:
Effects are as follows:
- Immediately after taking it, I felt a dull drowsiness spreading slowly over me.
- My head started feeling heavy and, reveling in this sensation [F na F!], I started to imagine my whole face weighed down by the grogginess so I let my head tilt towards the direction of my computer screen like a metal being attracted by a magnet.
- Just when I was enjoying my world-in-slow-motion sleepiness, later in the afternoon, hours after eating my lunch, I started feeling the heavy weight feeling of my head shift to my chest. I watched in fascination as I started to feel weighed down by a heavy feeling in my chest.
- After completing numerous tasks for the day, I suddenly had an urgent feeling emanating from my chest. The heavy feeling started to jitter me awake from my previous drowsiness. Suddenly, I'm wide awake. Every neuron seem to be up and about, and the feeling from my chest seem to be shouting at me and demanding commands with every downward thuds of my heart: "NOW! NOW! NOW!" What does it want me to do?? It wants me to act now on what?? Dismayed, I semi-frowned and ignored my ADHD heart as I took several trips to the pantry to refill water on my tumbler. This was alternated with several trips to the CR. It seems the ADHD drug has caused me to feel insatiable thirst and wipe out the company's water supply. Additionally, it also seemed to have transfer my ADHD from my personality to my heart. Thus the "NOW! NOW!" thuds of my heart. Aside from the urgent sense that I should do something immediately like put out a fire in some building, I also felt an imminent feeling, as if the world will come to end soon. My heart was jolting me and scolding me so much for God knows what that I started taking deep, slow breaths, trying to calm my "Aning" heart. It ignored me and continued with its urgent beating for 3 more hours until the drug's effects, thankfully, has worn off.
Now I'm back to my ADHD self but with a normal heart. The trick of the drug, I think, lies in making the user worry so much about the proper functioning of her heart that it leaves her with no chance for spinning around too much or talking excessively for the time being.
Thursday, May 10
I cry everywhere
I cry over simple scenes in movies that are not even the slightest bit tear-inducing. I cry when I feel uncontrollable surges of jealousy. Quite embarrassingly, I cry alone in public places like jeeps and MRT trains, most probably because I tend to assess my emotions when I'm alone and have nothing better to do on my hands, or maybe I just talk too much to myself in my own head that I end up facing the reality that there are lots of things I want from people which I just don't ask them for, and all this frustration at being a non-communicator always succeeds in making me cry, usually at public places that are non-conducive for crying and coming in to terms with my emotions like jeeps and MRT trains. In the end I always come to what I always knew from the start: That I am one of the most frustrated passive-aggressive persons I know and I don't know what to do about it but it's so troublesome and has been the cause of my greatest misery.
If only there's a way for me to know for sure that things will really turn out fine in the end, and if only I can be be assured that my heart is in the right place however recklessly I act most of the time, then maybe I would stop crying alone at MRT trains.
Sunday, April 22
Another PMS Episode
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| Me & Cha Co |
Saturday, April 21
It hurted
It hurted a lot today. It hurt when I asked him to return my favorite book, and he told me he wasn't done reading it, and I tapped the pages of the book against the table so that his bookmark falls out and I handed it to him. And it hurt how I did not put something on the page to remember where he stopped reading so that he can resume reading someday, maybe. And it hurt that I wanted him to take me to where I was meeting a friend like he wanted. But I told him I can go to the place alone. And when I stepped on the bus, it hurt me that although I wanted him to board, I said goodbye to him. And it hurt so much that he accepted my decision with a nod and a half hurt/half angry face. And it hurt very very much when he walked away. I didn't want him to go. I felt very lonely. I wanted to take him in my arms. But I can't, he's gone. :'c
Sunday, April 8
Green-Eyed Monster
I can't help it, sometimes, I get a bit jealous.
I try reasoning with myself when this happens, like telling myself that suppose he really is meant for her -this friend of his whom he accepts tagged pictures with on Facebook, and I'm being silly by feeling petty jealousy when she is really his future wife, and that I could be stopping destiny by preventing them from being together through mere feelings of unreasonable jealousy and hating the thought of them together even if it's the natural order of things.
Somehow, I only manage to make myself feel worse. :-/
Of course all this unhealthy feelings, I don't discuss with him, not wanting to bother him with my childish, unreasonable emotions, and seeing as how the last time I fessed up feelings of psychotic jealousy when I was seeing someone, I ended up losing that person. I only hope I stop feeling this already, it's really no fun being a jealous person. It doesn't help that I have such a wide imagination, imagining 100,001 torturous ways of him being together with her.
Like with anything else, I ended up googling causes of jealousy, hoping to understand why I'm such a wacko...
From Wikipedia:
In psychology
Jealousy involves an entire “emotional episode,” including a complex “narrative,”: the circumstances that lead up to jealousy, jealousy itself as emotion, any attempt at self regulation, subsequent actions and events and the resolution of the episode (Parrott, 2001, p. 306). The narrative can originate from experienced facts, thoughts, perceptions, memories, but also imagination, guess and assumptions. The more society and culture matter in the formation of these factors, the more jealousy can have a social and cultural origin. By contrast, Goldie (2000, p. 228) shows how jealousy can be a “cognitively impenetrable state”, where education and rational belief matter very little.
One possible explanation of the origin of jealousy in evolutionary psychology is that the emotion evolved in order to maximize the success of our genes: it is a biologically based emotion (Prinz after Buss and Larsen, 2004, p. 120) selected to foster the certainty about the paternity of one’s own offspring. A jealous behavior, in men, is directed into avoiding sexual betrayal and a consequent waste of resources and effort in taking care of someone else’s offspring. There are, additionally, cultural or social explanations of the origin of jealousy. According to one, the narrative from which jealousy arises can be in great part made by the imagination. Imagination is strongly affected by a person's cultural milieu. The pattern of reasoning, the way one perceives situations, depends strongly on cultural context. It has elsewhere been suggested that jealousy is in fact a secondary emotion in reaction to one's needs not being met, be those needs for attachment, attention, reassurance or any other form of care that would be otherwise expected to arise from that primary romantic relationship.
So based on the explanation of Wikipedia, what need of mine could he have possibly failed to meet for me to feel jealous?
I can't help it, sometimes, I get a bit jealous.
I try reasoning with myself when this happens, like telling myself that suppose he really is meant for her -this friend of his whom he accepts tagged pictures with on Facebook, and I'm being silly by feeling petty jealousy when she is really his future wife, and that I could be stopping destiny by preventing them from being together through mere feelings of unreasonable jealousy and hating the thought of them together even if it's the natural order of things.
Somehow, I only manage to make myself feel worse. :-/
Of course all this unhealthy feelings, I don't discuss with him, not wanting to bother him with my childish, unreasonable emotions, and seeing as how the last time I fessed up feelings of psychotic jealousy when I was seeing someone, I ended up losing that person. I only hope I stop feeling this already, it's really no fun being a jealous person. It doesn't help that I have such a wide imagination, imagining 100,001 torturous ways of him being together with her.
Like with anything else, I ended up googling causes of jealousy, hoping to understand why I'm such a wacko...
From Wikipedia:
In psychology
Jealousy involves an entire “emotional episode,” including a complex “narrative,”: the circumstances that lead up to jealousy, jealousy itself as emotion, any attempt at self regulation, subsequent actions and events and the resolution of the episode (Parrott, 2001, p. 306). The narrative can originate from experienced facts, thoughts, perceptions, memories, but also imagination, guess and assumptions. The more society and culture matter in the formation of these factors, the more jealousy can have a social and cultural origin. By contrast, Goldie (2000, p. 228) shows how jealousy can be a “cognitively impenetrable state”, where education and rational belief matter very little.
One possible explanation of the origin of jealousy in evolutionary psychology is that the emotion evolved in order to maximize the success of our genes: it is a biologically based emotion (Prinz after Buss and Larsen, 2004, p. 120) selected to foster the certainty about the paternity of one’s own offspring. A jealous behavior, in men, is directed into avoiding sexual betrayal and a consequent waste of resources and effort in taking care of someone else’s offspring. There are, additionally, cultural or social explanations of the origin of jealousy. According to one, the narrative from which jealousy arises can be in great part made by the imagination. Imagination is strongly affected by a person's cultural milieu. The pattern of reasoning, the way one perceives situations, depends strongly on cultural context. It has elsewhere been suggested that jealousy is in fact a secondary emotion in reaction to one's needs not being met, be those needs for attachment, attention, reassurance or any other form of care that would be otherwise expected to arise from that primary romantic relationship.
So based on the explanation of Wikipedia, what need of mine could he have possibly failed to meet for me to feel jealous?
Friday, March 16
Wednesday, February 22
He still likes her.
10. I have strong legs which I can walk for 3 hours straight without rest.
9. I can carry heavy grocery bags.
8. I can write using both left and right hands.
7. I can form loops with tongue.
6. I'm a loyal friend.
5. I can dance.
4. I'm good at giving back rubs.
3. I make very few grammatical errors.
2. My wrists don't get fat.
1. I don't put other people down.
10. I have strong legs which I can walk for 3 hours straight without rest.
9. I can carry heavy grocery bags.
8. I can write using both left and right hands.
7. I can form loops with tongue.
6. I'm a loyal friend.
5. I can dance.
4. I'm good at giving back rubs.
3. I make very few grammatical errors.
2. My wrists don't get fat.
1. I don't put other people down.
Tuesday, February 21
Monday, January 2
Top 2011 Songs I Loved Listening to on Youtube:
1. Moulin Rouge - Come What May (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvJpJl04cAI)
- At the beginning of 2011, I allowed myself infatuations involving 1) a younger guy and: 2)another guy who looks a bit like Ewan McGregor in my infatuated mind. This led me to watch this Moulin Rouge clip over and over again, reveling in the feeling of falling in love with a penniless guy just because his heart is (in my lovelorn mind) pure.
2. Say It's Possible - Terra Naomi (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARHyRI9_NB4)
- Another one that tops my 2011 list of songs is this one which I accidentally stumbled upon by searching for a mellow lullabye-like song I've heard a former office mate play (whose title and artist I don't really know so I ended up listening to Jay Brennan songs, guessing it was him.) I never found the song & artist but I came across this which is really nice too.
3. First Love - Utada Hiraku (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RshS5HTM6vo)
- Following the trend of sap, I've been in since the start of 2011, I have decided to give in to insistent LSS (Last Song Syndrome) in my head, searched and found a Toni Gonzaga song, learned it was a remake, then found the original version. Another heart-wrenching song for the wretched emo spirit that won't leave me.
4. When In Rome - The Promise (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwGeMYBGffs)
- Another LSS song, this time heard on a new wave soundtrack playing jeep! Remembering the song the next day meant another youtube searching frenzy for me!
5. Die Another Day - Madonna (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwDEqNMb0fE)
- Because of rumours circulating that world will end come May, and because it didn't, this dancy tune suddenly popped in my head in celebration of a postponed world end.
6. Love and Longing - My Sassy Girl OST (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUTXJVo7__A)
- Yet another sappy song, this is the instrumental piano background played at the Korean movie My Sassy Girl when Sassy Girl made Kyunwoo go to the other mountain and she was crying cause she was sorry. This is also the song played when girl told Kyunwoo about her ex-boyfriend who died. Relevance to own life: Feeling blue so listened to this.
7. The Show - South Border (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LuleY2iPlpE)
- Went to a party hosted by a friend who just graduated from culinary school. One of his cousins sang this come videoke time which made me remember just how much I liked this hiphop OPM song, never mind the saucy grinding video.
8. Just A Kiss - Lady Antellebum (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xs9X8NhQJF4)
- Stumbled upon this on Tumblr. A sweet love song that is not tiring to listen to even if repeated all through out the day.
9. Tadhana - Up Dharma Down(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUCwIHAAOC0)
- Heard this on Jam 88.3 on the weekend where they're playing nothing but songs from Filipino artists. I probably developed a liking for this song simply from always hearing it played on the TV as an OST to a GMA telenovela.
10. Arms - Christina Perri (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvbErM6ZTBA)
- Heard this on the radio (probably on RX 93.1 or Mellow 94.7)and though it has a gospel song quality, I can't help but appreciate the heart outpouring albeit cheesy quality of the song and the manner it was sung.
Other songs:
11. Angel Of Mercy - One Republic (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3QJyNcglSc)
12. Stronger - Kanye West (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0tLN22mMlU)
13. We Found Love - Rihanna (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tg00YEETFzg)
14. Can You Help Me - Usher (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COElrYxpCHA)
15. Better Days - Goo Goo Dolls (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIFhst3DwPE)
16. Hold Me Now - Wayne Wonder (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_W60eJ73Pk)
17. Breathe In - Frou Frou (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=naLr4q8OYEs)
18. Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nK_u_V76o60)
19. Symphony No. 9 - Beethoven (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAOTCtW9v0M)
20. Spiderwebs - No Doubt (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dZXUCHCLVag)
21. Pink - Raise Your Glass (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvvamodXZbw)
22. Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEPTlhBmwRg)
23. Just Can't Get Enough - Black Eyed Peas(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtJB2_rn-qs)
24. First Cut is the Deepest - Sheryl Crow (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFrVfH54Q1Y)
25. Here with Me - Plumb (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LxEyErosnHo)
26. You Drive Me Crazy - Britney Spears (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuCTuWve0NE)
27. Now That You're Gone - Ella Mae Saison (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yetqeK4UlvA)
28. The Show Goes On - Lupe Fiasco (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sIlXlb3zcCw)
29. This Gathering - Franco (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=li6hpqjYdXw)
30. Falling In - Lifehouse (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bzr2tgXPsVM)
1. Moulin Rouge - Come What May (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvJpJl04cAI)
- At the beginning of 2011, I allowed myself infatuations involving 1) a younger guy and: 2)another guy who looks a bit like Ewan McGregor in my infatuated mind. This led me to watch this Moulin Rouge clip over and over again, reveling in the feeling of falling in love with a penniless guy just because his heart is (in my lovelorn mind) pure.
2. Say It's Possible - Terra Naomi (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARHyRI9_NB4)
- Another one that tops my 2011 list of songs is this one which I accidentally stumbled upon by searching for a mellow lullabye-like song I've heard a former office mate play (whose title and artist I don't really know so I ended up listening to Jay Brennan songs, guessing it was him.) I never found the song & artist but I came across this which is really nice too.
3. First Love - Utada Hiraku (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RshS5HTM6vo)
- Following the trend of sap, I've been in since the start of 2011, I have decided to give in to insistent LSS (Last Song Syndrome) in my head, searched and found a Toni Gonzaga song, learned it was a remake, then found the original version. Another heart-wrenching song for the wretched emo spirit that won't leave me.
4. When In Rome - The Promise (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwGeMYBGffs)
- Another LSS song, this time heard on a new wave soundtrack playing jeep! Remembering the song the next day meant another youtube searching frenzy for me!
5. Die Another Day - Madonna (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwDEqNMb0fE)
- Because of rumours circulating that world will end come May, and because it didn't, this dancy tune suddenly popped in my head in celebration of a postponed world end.
6. Love and Longing - My Sassy Girl OST (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUTXJVo7__A)
- Yet another sappy song, this is the instrumental piano background played at the Korean movie My Sassy Girl when Sassy Girl made Kyunwoo go to the other mountain and she was crying cause she was sorry. This is also the song played when girl told Kyunwoo about her ex-boyfriend who died. Relevance to own life: Feeling blue so listened to this.
7. The Show - South Border (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LuleY2iPlpE)
- Went to a party hosted by a friend who just graduated from culinary school. One of his cousins sang this come videoke time which made me remember just how much I liked this hiphop OPM song, never mind the saucy grinding video.
8. Just A Kiss - Lady Antellebum (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xs9X8NhQJF4)
- Stumbled upon this on Tumblr. A sweet love song that is not tiring to listen to even if repeated all through out the day.
9. Tadhana - Up Dharma Down(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUCwIHAAOC0)
- Heard this on Jam 88.3 on the weekend where they're playing nothing but songs from Filipino artists. I probably developed a liking for this song simply from always hearing it played on the TV as an OST to a GMA telenovela.
10. Arms - Christina Perri (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvbErM6ZTBA)
- Heard this on the radio (probably on RX 93.1 or Mellow 94.7)and though it has a gospel song quality, I can't help but appreciate the heart outpouring albeit cheesy quality of the song and the manner it was sung.
Other songs:
11. Angel Of Mercy - One Republic (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3QJyNcglSc)
12. Stronger - Kanye West (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0tLN22mMlU)
13. We Found Love - Rihanna (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tg00YEETFzg)
14. Can You Help Me - Usher (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COElrYxpCHA)
15. Better Days - Goo Goo Dolls (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIFhst3DwPE)
16. Hold Me Now - Wayne Wonder (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_W60eJ73Pk)
17. Breathe In - Frou Frou (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=naLr4q8OYEs)
18. Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nK_u_V76o60)
19. Symphony No. 9 - Beethoven (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAOTCtW9v0M)
20. Spiderwebs - No Doubt (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dZXUCHCLVag)
21. Pink - Raise Your Glass (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvvamodXZbw)
22. Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEPTlhBmwRg)
23. Just Can't Get Enough - Black Eyed Peas(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtJB2_rn-qs)
24. First Cut is the Deepest - Sheryl Crow (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFrVfH54Q1Y)
25. Here with Me - Plumb (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LxEyErosnHo)
26. You Drive Me Crazy - Britney Spears (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuCTuWve0NE)
27. Now That You're Gone - Ella Mae Saison (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yetqeK4UlvA)
28. The Show Goes On - Lupe Fiasco (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sIlXlb3zcCw)
29. This Gathering - Franco (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=li6hpqjYdXw)
30. Falling In - Lifehouse (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bzr2tgXPsVM)
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